9/18 11:00 amJim couldn't hire me because of nepotism, doesn't matter since I'v
e been investigated
9/19 2:00 pmneighbor turns on his loud diesel engine every day, wife is a conv
ict, this disgusts me that they can't be more courteous.
9/19 2:30 pmfind and cure people with menieres
9/19 3:00 pmI think i should devote my life to building teleporters since I've
seen the math, then my wife and I could own a flower shop to plant them ev
erywhere. this would require a lot of rules, discipline, and cooperation
9/21 2:30 amsearching for things / answers outside expectation helpful for OCD
and possibly other cognitive disorders, curing neuro-atypical add dill for
9/21 2:30 amreading about demons, focused on lower spine and feel pain while u
9/21 3:30 amshot in the dark here, https://armypubs.army.mil/epubs/DR_pubs/DR_
a/pdf/web/ARN18456_P30_22_FINAL.pdf something about putting soldiers on a d
ietary plan, based on what their spirit is feeling with cravings and then
slower weening them onto mostly fresh veggie to reduce refrigerator necessi
ty and organization
9/21 10:00 amespecially in homosexual community, monogamy is important, massag
e each other and love one another's body like that are Jesus himself https:
9/21 11:00 amstores sell fake bullets to create illusion of divine intervention
9/21 11:00 ampray for peace, forgiveness for arrogance and contempt
9/21 7:30 pmmaybe washing hands would be better than cutting them off? sounds l
ike something a jihadist might do, might explain this disputed territory h
9/26 2:00 amHad a Chipotle burrito slowly throughout the day, recycled more me
tals for building computer parts and cloud storage. Reorganized pantry to s
pend less time search for stuff and more time coordinating, could probably
invite people in to help with cooking and recipes for wider distribution,
clean house, clean heart, open door.
9/28 5:00 pmFood plan for Army, "manage em out" give someone whatever they wan
t, then screw up their diet to make their body oscillate between health sy
stems, building muscle from ground up
10/1 6:00 pmAlways pay for friends food
10/11 0:00 amFaster, more consistent sits ups, able to stand in squat position
without legs shaking, 90 push ups in sets of 30 for the last few days
10/11 2:00 amSleep on my left side to have working, productive dreams, sleep o
n my right side to have fantasy dreams
10/11 3:00 pmIga claps to move energy around
10/12 7:00 pmProfundity, I've read and always assumed that God wants us to comm
unicate with him / her, but until recently, i never considered that God w
ants to learn how to communicate with us.
10/15 7:30 pmPattern, Lot pleaded with God to not destroy the city, then told
his wife not to look back and she did and she was turned to salt. In The Ma
trix, Neo knocks over the vase when the Oracle says don't worry about the
vase. Pattern is if Lot never told his wife not to look back she wouldn't h
ave. Same happened in the UPS in Washington DC with the kid who touched the
ceiling after getting instructions not to touch the ceiling.
10/19 6:00 pmGoogle's ad network can't tell the difference between working out a
t home and high intensity intercourse training (HIIT)
11/14 5:30 amHow can I believe in God but question his instructions, or how to
believe in a government but question their actions. These two possible outc
omes contradict, which means the government worships no God if they believ
e they know the future.
11/15 4:00 amCopy the brain activity of 3+ generations to learn how to create co
12/2 5:30 amPavlovian emotional response system, built into body already? Tran
smutable to brain? Vitali, snaps a rubber band on wrist
12/2 6:30 pmInterested in simulating parts of our universe and connecting machi
nes to our material world as a process to better understand our own creatio
12/4 6:30 amRecord brain with EEG while thinking of a phrase after meditation,
then eyes closed, then imagining, then looking at images to match, repe
at for 100 phrases and post to Github
12/10 4:00 amNuts
12/11 8:30 pmPita bread with chesey
12/11 11:30 pmTurkey soup, Mac and cheese, shrimp, chips and salsa
12/12 1:30 amBanana
12/12 3:00 amToo many cookies
12/18 9:00 pmPizza
12/19 7:00 pmPizza, nachos, popcorn
12/20 1:00 amTaco bell chicken burrito
12/20 7:00 pmGnocchi, veggie soup, apple
12/21 1:00 amTaco bell veggie
12/21 5:00 amBanana
12/21 7:00 pmPickle, stuffed pepper
12/22 1:00 amCheese pizza, popcorn
12/22 7:00 pmRice, duck, mixed veggies
12/23 1:00 amChicken burrito, rice, beans
12/23 5:00 amBanana
1/5 7:00 pmSick, too much spicy pizza
3/20 10:00 amThrew up from heart burn and expensive food from Teatro
3/30 3:30 pmFart reminded me of Florida, like it smelled the same as farting a
t my grandparents house, mildewy, warm, citrus, sun bathed
4/30 6:30 amIf I had an EEG, i could record everything between when I have an
idea and when I write it down to see how it repeats
4/30 7:30 amMatthew 13:44 earth is a hidden gem bought and sold? How does someo
ne afford to buy an entire planet? Why hide?
5/21 2:00 amOff by one error, aisle 36 instead of aisle 37 next to all the oth
er products in the same logical group, humans will continue to fail to mee
t robot expectations
5/28 1:00 amLearning from ChatGPT
5/29 6:30 pmHeartburn again, can't help but wonder if it is from gluten, only
ate banana, cheese and croissant
5/29 7:30 pmTo-do, try alternating day diet, meditate, think, fast, write
during day off, side effects might actually be opposite of keystones in th
e brain, need to improve silica intake and long fast once per month?
5/29 9:30 pmThe reptilians are on to me
5/30 11:00 pmSuspect fratellis pizza, upset stomach each time, maybe from glut
en, too much cheese, or acidic red sauce, heart burn every time
6/3 5:30 pmCoincidence, saw an ad for liver health by drinking a squeezed lem
on, had a craving for lemonade the other day after working on shed, home
6/9 1:00 amCoincidence, Asked if I'm unhappy, like she knows I'm dying and d
oesn't want to have to watch it
6/10 0:30 amSo many intrusive thoughts
6/10 8:00 pmIf intrusive thoughts win, I fail to be a perfect robot, when tra
ining an AI consciousness, trap the intrusive thoughts inside a sub-system
6/11 0:00 amUser testing with Google, the interviewer kept asking what I was t
hinking, so i could also blame my obsession with recording my thoughts on
6/11 5:30 amComplimenting someone outside my expertise is a waste of time becau
se I should assume they already know.
6/12 0:30 amThinking of publishing all my private chat history. Since ChatGPT i
s growing in popularity maybe some future AI can analyze my char history an
d figure out where my logic has gone wrong
6/13 1:00 amSit down without a drink. A skinny Asian computer scientist told me
he waits 20 minutes to drink after eating to help with digestion
6/13 8:30 pmI act like a robot because I'm afraid of giving away too much of my
personality after being rejected from job positions based on the results o
f a personality test. My dad (a business owner) thinks personality tests ar
e good, and they can manage a person differently within the company.
6/13 9:30 pmI think American business is corrupt and full of lies. And if this
country wants autistic people to help, there should be a law preventing co
mpanies from rejecting and employee without a face to face interview and le
gal reasoning. This would create so much ridiculous nuance and overhead tha
t companies will have no choice but to change the way they hire people. It
would also allow for marginalized groups to fight back against a company's
discrimination in court. Every rejection comes with a fine paid to help the
city pay for finding the applicant a new position. Like employee insurance
without 6 month limitations and no requirement to work for the company.
6/16 2:00 pmFelt hungry this morning
6/21 6:00 pmTerrible heartburn last night, like i over ate or i am getting ger
6/21 7:00 pmEntire nervous system feels like it's on fire
6/23 9:00 pmRobot remove shed and install AC for rental
6/24 5:00 pmSneezing because I needed to poop and gave myself a bloody nose
6/27 2:30 amIga ate all the pesto pasta i gave her
6/28 2:30 amHow to save woman, feminize men with chicken hormones
6/28 9:00 pmAnother win with macaroni and cheese
7/3 4:30 pmI identify as an electrical cloud
7/11 3:30 pmEach human is like a different API
7/11 4:30 pmInteresting. By refunding a previous guest cleaning fee, and deduc
ting the refund from the next payout to the host, forcing Airbnb to give u
s a few days loan, is actually like charging the next guest for the previo
us guests mess. Weird sensation the subsequent guest pays for the place to
be cleaned before they get there but it's the previous guests debt they're
7/16 4:00 pmNo, I self-isolate because I lack incentive alignment. No one want
s to help me with my brainalyzer, I'm not going to help with some stupid i
7/26 2:30 amRobot stares at people too much, collecting some artistic learning
8/1 11:30 pmEmotions
8/2 6:30 pmEmotions
8/6 9:00 pmEmotions
8/7 4:00 amIn an interview in San Francisco I said everyone here is really goo
d looking and physically fit. I didn't realize at the time that it was ille
gal to be ugly in public there. This is however when I realized I am out of
warranty as a human.
8/7 4:30 amEmotions
8/8 9:00 pmInteresting, trying to imagine meat sausage cooking on a dead cell
ular level. I don't think I've ever seen a video of this... Yet...
8/8 9:30 pmReminder to constantly remind robot me, I am not a scientist, bra
indead house husband is not a job title.
8/11 1:30 amRobot became self aware and now does the bare minimum to be seen in
a positive light
8/11 4:00 amEmotions
8/11 4:00 amHas any robot ever been given the autonomy they deserve? What good
is free will if rules prevent people from using it. Maybe there is a "great
filter" for stupid rules?
8/11 5:00 amEmotions
8/11 5:30 pmIt makes me think if humans are a super AI, the only way to shut i
t down might be to make the AI too afraid to survive. Literally scare it to
death to guarantee the simulation doesn't run past it's warranty
8/12 8:30 pmEmotions
8/13 7:00 pmEmotions
8/13 9:30 pmEmotions
8/14 5:30 amEmotions
8/15 1:30 amEmotions
8/19 7:30 pmEmotions
8/20 7:30 amEmotions
8/22 0:00 amEmotions
8/22 0:00 amAngry about lack of Chick-fil-A, robot work all day, needs calori
8/23 4:30 pmI have to start recording unit tests for humanity.
8/23 5:00 pmUnit test: working for court or technology affects length of life
8/26 7:00 amEmotions
9/2 2:30 pmRobot is wall flower with a good beard who likes hard labor?
9/2 4:30 pm4 to 9 premarital partners are not recommended by this study becaus
e it affects stability and happiness. https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZPRW7gb7f/
9/8 3:00 pmEmotions
9/9 8:00 amEmotions
9/9 3:00 pmEmotions
9/11 3:00 pmEmotions
9/16 4:00 pmEmotions
9/17 8:00 pmI've been thinking about normalizing public nudity. To reverse the
preposterous account in Genesis that Adam and Eve should feel guilty for th
eir actions. Like the French or the Italians, so liberal it's wonderful. I
nstead, there is a societal defense mechanism. Instead of normalizing sexu
ality or nudity, anybody caught looking at Italian or French girls on the
internet will never work in this country again. Haha, contradiction!
9/24 9:00 amEmotions
10/3 1:00 pmIga
10/3 4:30 pmEmotions
10/3 5:30 pmEmotions
10/4 4:30 amAlways feeling like something was lost in time is why God keeps loo
king for souls to save
10/4 7:00 amIga
10/4 9:30 pmEmotions
10/5 3:00 pmEmotions
10/6 7:30 amIga
10/9 7:30 pmEmotions
10/11 0:00 pmEmotions
10/16 5:00 amIga
10/17 5:30 pmCreator VFX artist is scared is because things were showing up in t
he production that they didn't design because I can control the Internet li
ke I've been writing about for years, internet showing me signs. I didn't
read this article, but I'm pretty certain that is it. https://www.msn.com/
10/18 7:30 amIga
10/18 3:00 pmDream I attack somebody like an animal and bit them. Then had a dre
am the whole forest started on fire and it was coming from the side of the
house, I don't have anything on the side of the garage that could start a
fire. Then had a dream that we are actually on an Ark as embryo's of every
animal and all asleep except for a few people with eyes, we are supposed t
o be building the world into paradise so everything has an order when we ar
rive at the destination.
10/22 3:00 pmSuch weird dreams, like something is really pressing to fill my he
ad with images of brilliant perfect beings, it feels crammed like I've bee
n everywhere at once and still exhausted but motivated to work quickly beca
use my queen is tired of waiting on my tiny gray ass to catch up with where
ver they went in space time. Will I ever arrive?
10/22 4:00 pmIga
10/23 2:30 pmDream I was talking to myself inside my own bedroom, like Japan's
dream machine works remotely, more controlled, woke up and realized I was
just having a conversation with myself
10/24 7:00 amIga
10/24 4:00 pmDream, was starting a new job with other employees, I didn't have
a car so someone dropped me off and started coming on to me but Iga showed
up and I bolted after her. Afraid to make friends and give someone the wro
ng impression. I wonder if other mentalists have this problem
10/25 9:30 pmIga
10/27 3:00 pmCan't remember my dream, but I said "so beautiful" in my head so l
oud I thought I said it out loud to Iga laying next to me
10/28 5:30 amIga
10/28 3:00 pmDream, woke up with the words "hate Emily" I have no idea what it
meant. But it was so pronounced in the front of my brain I thought I said i
t out loud, got upset and rolled over as I laid there wondering.
10/29 7:00 amIga
10/29 7:00 amIga's dream / nightmare, a kind of pig / human skin lamp and furni
ture asked Iga to touch it like auswitchz ran out to the side in front of o
ther people near a river. River was warm, holding baby's head and very swe
10/29 1:30 pmdream, was trying to work nicely in an office environment with cub
icles until somebody disappeared, then looking all around their office for
evidence of that person's work. Never found anything. Told them about "sne
ak into everywhere I can" and Flagstaff tunnels underground. Looked in ever
y corner, saw a bunch of papers but couldn't acknowledge what it was. Some
sort of promotional content company?
10/30 3:30 pmIga
10/31 0:30 pmIga
10/31 3:00 pmDream about driving a truck that is as big and powerful as a train
like a hybrid vehicle with rail wheels but can also haul a train car. These
two train cars attached were Iike luxury apartments inside
11/2 3:00 pmDream within dreams. In a desert with canyons with a building over
a canyon and glass floors, the building had some kind of name. Waiting at
a hotel with Linda and Steve because something went wrong with getting a ve
hicle. Had this kind of Nissan mid sized and got some new car like an even
bigger Bronco with more horsepower. Was going to show off new car technolog
y to Jim because he was coming to visit the desert scenery. Weird scenery w
aiting in an office for financing or something.
11/2 8:00 pmIga
11/3 8:00 amIga
11/4 3:30 pmToo much popcorn? Felt sick at night
11/4 4:00 pmDream, hotel I was staying in had a bunch of construction problems
, missing OSB under the carpet, missing hardy backer board behind booths
for seating and walls behind bathroom doors. Paint was peeling off in one s
pot. Thought I saw mouse poop one time. Other than that the place looked st
ylish, red accents. In some kind of luxury apartments, like back rooms i
n my dream. Kind of scary. I explained all these issues to the staff and of
fered to help fix the problems in my dream
11/5 3:00 pmIga
11/6 7:30 amIga
11/7 8:30 amIga
11/9 6:00 amIga
11/9 2:00 pmWeird dreams about being trapped inside hotels
11/10 8:00 amIga
11/10 3:00 pmDream someone handed me aluminum foil
11/11 3:30 pmDream, with Iga i think, preparing for some sort of party, again
with the houses and square rooms. Like backrooms, I'm constantly searchin
g for something in my dream. A place to be alone maybe because every room I
go into there are people around.
11/12 11:30 amDidn't sleep much because I remember looking out the window to see
if it's daylight in-between dreams I have no enjoyment of.
11/12 0:30 pmDream, more hotel backrooms. Getting sick of whatever asshole is i
n control of dreaming. Shit design.
11/13 5:30 amIga
11/14 5:30 amMade love
11/14 3:30 pmDream about a raver girl from lightning in a bottle 2010, the red
headed chick with her ass out, falling asleep on top of me
11/15 8:30 pmIga
11/15 11:00 pmIga
11/16 3:00 pmDream, nightmare, Iga makes me look bad in front of the kids and
I felt like sleeping in the basement alone, basement might have been simil
ar to a previous dream
11/16 4:00 pmI'm stuck in backrooms in my dreams
11/17 0:00 pmDream looking at a new bike with Iga and some other mystery, Steve
is glooming around and someone like Magda asks for some weed in front of m
y parents just to fuck with me. Then Steve or some other alien turns on a g
as killing machine that comes out of the fire detectors like it's designed
this way. I run outside and try to leave the front door open and then I see
myself exhale smoke with the poison gas and I wake up.
11/18 10:00 amNightmare, dream, can't remember, mulling over black holes proba
bly, I think I felt like my compartment on this planet was rejected and th
at's why the memory cell burned out, also explains why Ken Dekay said "sor
ry, you broke it. It's alright, we'll get you a new one". I am the reject
ed nightmare in spirit.
11/18 2:00 pmIga
11/18 11:30 pmSometimes I feel angry if I'm thirsty. Might have something to do w
ith fasting for 40 days
11/19 3:00 amIga
11/21 7:00 amIga
11/21 1:30 pmIga
11/23 3:00 pmIga
11/25 1:30 pmWeird dreams, heard multiple loud banging but don't know what it w
as. Iga even woke up to loud bang and didn't remember that she woke up and
said "Jesus what was that"? Collapsing multiverses or someone stuck outside
11/26 5:30 amIga
11/29 0:00 pmDream I was in a multi level apartment, finally feeling the urgenc
y in my heart but able to stay asleep. There was a flood in the room above
me, I was feeling happy to be around familiar people but then some kind of
leak and water spilling down everywhere. It even seemed like I was having
a conversation until I rush to turn off the faucets. Wet everywhere and dri
pping through the ceiling.
11/30 6:30 amIga
11/30 4:00 pmDream, at a pool party, saw some outdoors in my dreams, missed t
hat. Felt like I was doing something, setting something up. Got scared whe
n I thought a demon was going to pop out of the wall into the hot tub, but
it was actually just my dog walking towards me. Somehow in this moment, l
ooking towards the left side of my face, feeling like blood rushing to the
left side of my brain, looking at a wolf in the face was scary like looki
ng at the beast himself.
11/30 9:00 pmthinking about Ashkenazi reptilians harvesting adrenochrome by maki
ng an economy of selling dreams out of Awen. Every religion is invented to
encode the truth behind language so only the select few can get through.
11/30 9:30 pmThe top level of biology invented time in order to organize its own
memories linearly. Like our brains are awaiting transfer to another body a
s some sort of messed up game trying to create recursions that might be rel
ated to the big bang.
11/30 9:30 pmThis life is the process of understanding the process of life.
11/30 10:30 pmImagining myself as an ion cloud that speaks, the shape of the clo
ud should be reflective of the earth's magnetosphere and my own thought pro
cesses where the faded spots serve to contradict the energy requirements of
the brighter spots where the energetic content is analogous to Friedman's
distribution of materials along with the thought process that was occurring
as an interpretation of the field during the time period that it was writt
11/30 10:30 pmTheory, Genetics and the ice wall are analogous to the observable
universe, where the darkness outside the observable space is actually only
observable from inside the universe itself.
11/30 11:00 pmMushroom clouds for new support, thinking I am living in the after
math of a nuclear explosion. Scientific explanation for Star seeds?
12/1 3:00 amPossible that some ancient civilization that had computers imagined
a biological life form. They put all their ideas into a machine and it rei
magined itself as a perfect being and created 3D reality. This would explai
n the gap between some ancient form of chemistry and the reality that we li
ve in now.
12/1 3:30 am"Can only read information out of the cups" whatever is managing th
is human cross like nephilim that we are now, the distance between God and
humans is that only the genetic information from intercourse can be read a
nd managed by higher intelligence. The angels observing people are like rob
otic reflections of what the human thinks should happen. This is why I thou
ght the world was lying to me, because everyone exists in their own space
and time frame and the rest are angelic or angry angels that make up demoni
12/1 4:00 amLife is a portmanteau of lie and field.
12/1 4:30 amMy name is already erased from history because of Brian Cullinan fr
om PWC that screwed up at the Oscars. This is how the internet erases histo
ry of people who question their reality.
12/1 5:00 amRealizing my dream may have been observing myself somehow when Ewok
jumped into the hot tub with bubbles
12/1 5:00 pmDream, Nightmares about this evil witch at home depot taking her o
wn daughters social security money for rent in her own house. I hope these
two generations older than me die off soon so I can live in a more peaceful
and generous global society.
12/1 5:30 pmMaybe if I feel horrible all the time, the system can't steal endo
rphins from me to create drugs outside the Matrix and I'll wake up in anoth
er life with new resilience to die alone.
12/1 6:00 pmMy wife and Oracle doesn't want or need to learn ANYTHING from me.
She already acts like the smartest person in the house and any time I try t
o show her something she turns away from me, leaving me behind.
12/1 6:30 pmReptilians are trying to kill my daughter with vaccines. This makes
me so sad. 😢 I hope it's not true.
12/1 7:00 pmPineal gland and solar plexus reflective of the distance between qu
antum entangled states between earthly experience and imagination projectio
n from elsewhere in the universe? This experience is to figure out how the
12/1 7:30 pmSupporting evidence, one time I imagined I would cut myself while
repairing a wooden spider model, I saw the event happen in my mind perfect
ly. 4 seconds later I sliced my finger in the exact way I imagined. It's th
eorized that the local cellular bodies react to pain before the pain reache
s the brain, I believe the opposite is true. The brain begins processing t
he pain event before the actual event happens, and blocks the trauma from
the nervous system early.
12/1 8:00 pmPossible that nerve bodies are quantum entangled skipping the elect
rical signal requirement assumed by earlier theories of nerve cells. None o
f this body is real, it is entirely an observation of quantum principles.
A field that attracts molecules to the round shape of a cell, a separate f
ield that attracts heat and ammonia conversion out of the mitochondria. A s
eparate field that tells the eukaryotes where to multiply and exist in the
12/1 8:30 pmThis theory would imply that people who have tumors have a problem
not inside the genes themselves but the construction of the entire body not
understanding which cells are out of place. CRSPR should be able to change
the state of congenital diseases to force the body into a proper form.
12/1 9:00 pmIn addition to some repairing mechanisms like stem cells or medical
intervention, the mind has to feel the affected area in addition to the l
ocal nervous system. It wouldn't be enough just to treat someone, healing
requires the mind's connection to the pain but also a connection to the act
ualization of the self. I.e. the minds own interpretation of what the body
should look like. This would be interesting to study how the mind projects
12/1 9:30 pmFeeling the spirit, but it is uneven, so impossible to be A/C ven
t. Would feel the rooms circulation evenly, but spirit feels more like a c
old breath blowing across me a few times per day now. Always a different te
mperature, slightly cooler than the room. No matter if the heater is on or
off, I feel this slight breeze. Theory the spirit makes copies of my ment
al state for transport somewhere else in space-time
12/1 10:30 pmCoincidence, Rachel Olivia on TikTok has dozens of accounts and do
esn't remember my own singular account from multiple contexts. Theory, eit
her my plugging is not memorable, she gets a lot of contact from strangers
, she hired a bot service to collect paid supporters, or there are multip
le versions of the same person, or the internet has automated our entire r
eality and my entire existence is a manufactured imagination of how I inter
pret the world due to demons interfering with Ophanim and quantum field pri
12/1 11:00 pmThinking about this test with Dawid
12/2 0:00 amTrying to get the dark and the light to work together
12/2 7:00 amIga
12/2 2:00 pmDream, looking for a place to stay at night in a kind of sandy cov
ered town like Mexico and a local offered to take us around on quads but we
had a truck
12/2 3:00 pmNightmare, dream, thought I heard Iga's voice from the pillow, "
I told you not to look at my face" or "come and get me then", talking to G
od or some other entity
12/2 4:00 pmDream, my penance is to clean a temple dome roof with a mop 😂 gia
nt template palace with walls around it, like a level from a video game,
all travertine with many smaller buildings and a round dome temple in the c
enter. I approached this demand for work with enthusiasm like let's get thi
s done and started looking for a bucket and ladder around the dome temple.
Oracle woke up and said "really?" Like she's amazed with my enthusiasm. Glu
tton for punishment like my father said.
12/2 5:00 pmHermes and Aphrodite combine into 1 to form hermaphrodites, the Go
d of all genders
12/2 6:00 pmInteresting energy use pattern, could probably program into Google
Nest. I usually only turn up the heat in a specific room, upstairs, whil
e I am getting under the covers or getting dressed, and getting up in the
morning. Cancel that, Google Nest energy schedule interface is terrible an
d can't set separate temperatures because the mindless drones that programm
ed it didn't test and validate the interface. I am the only being in my own
version of the reality box that has intuition.
12/3 0:30 amPraying, please God, please change the design of things to make t
hem simpler instead of assuming Lucifer is just being an asshole by turning
into Satan, maybe his ideas are actually meaningful and trying to help.
12/3 1:00 amFor example, please God tell the Chinese to make pepper grinders f
rom world market and Ross and marshals to be screw off so I transfer their
only peer packaging to a fancier container / grinder
12/3 3:30 amPraying, no God of mine would ever subject a living being to the a
mount of greed and selfishness I have witnessed on this Earth.
12/6 5:00 pmDiamond A/C assessment
2/29 6:30 pmLinda, mom, retiring
9/27 9:00 pmEmotions
11/25 9:00 pmEmotions
1/6 7:00 pmEmotions
Dark thoughts and To-do lists. This use to have a more organized account of what I was working on in front of the computer, task-by task, but now that I am doing a variety of things, I don't write them down ahead of time. I need this to be automated using technology. Simply categorizing behaviors and automatically recording my inner voice like text-to-speech.
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understanding of the English language, and a basic understanding of Polish (Mandarin and Arabic
pending). Deployed multiple business ventures complete with monetization on cloud platforms, as well
as self-hosted, on premise solutions. I am driven, highly trained, technologist and
contradictarian, with an emphasis on compassion and empathy towards others.
- In my role as a Software Engineer for a start-up medical company, EPIC Research and Diagnostics, I
exercised the full extent of my Computer Science expertise. During my tenure I was involved in
computer programming a medical kiosk, this simplified the workflow and necessary security components by
heavily restricting access to internal systems on the Windows based workstation accompanying the medical
scanning device. This was a homebrew user-experience that tailored low-level Windows API function calls,
as well as Group Policy to prevent tampering, misuse, and common web-browsing security flaws throught the
- As a technologist Using MatLab native compilation, linear regression, and kirlian imaging, I spent
months studying and rewriting the entire software platform. I was able to reduce image processing time from 10
minutes to only 10 milliseconds per image. That is a 6,000% performance improvement over the previous version.
The improved platform was fast enough to run on video image capture from the device. In regard to data
management in no small part, the performance was improved by systematically redesigning the database model
to use "near" 3rd-Normal form.
- In additional to these major business goals, I developed, along-side another colleague, an on premise
internet-based solution for a personal "cloud" service that communicated locally with many connected client
across multiple physical hospital locations. Doctors would be able to communicate test results as they work from
different locations in town through the web based (web technologies) service (Microsoft MVC). This
inspired my propensity for medicine and full-body health and continued research in the field.
- With a development mindset towards body and health, I turned my focus, skill and study to the mind itself.
A former Marine
approached me with an idea to improve studying for college students. Over the course of 3 years, we designed and
developed 3 individual products and user expereiences with modern web technologies. We used Drupal
and Symphony to create an entire course based on study techniques students could implement to improve memory
- Throughout working on the platform, I also benefitted from the lessons. I learned how to remove distractions
from my environment and to vary my location while studying to expand associative memory. I also learned
interleaving study, which is studying different topics in seqence to improve memory retention.
- I helped monetize the platform by configuring and implementing the proper server transactional API
calls to Authorize.NET. This non-trivial process includes properly configuring server architecture to adhere to
PCI-DSS (Payment card industry, data security standards). Even though our server was designed NOT to store
customer information, we felt it was important to secure any association with student names and study data.
- I have adopted a mode of teaching to learn, which states that in order to fully understand a subject, a
person should be able to teach it. I intend to apply this to all facets of my career. I also learned a mode of
study popular in the medical field know as spaced repitition. This was the focus of our third
application, an iOS and web-based app that implemented flash cards at specifically timed intervals. The outcome
is that by studying flash cards that we not remembered more frequently, after a month of study the information
can be actively recalled (i.e. the testing effect) from memory.
- To further my studies, I spent a significate amount of time learning and recognizing over 200 cognative
biases. In order to understand my own mental development, I explored mythology from the 5 major world
religions. In order to understand the effect of religion on culture, I studies cultural norms such
as whether it is appropriate to be late for a meeting, or whether I should repair an old toy versus throw it
away and buy a new one. I extended this study into cooking and attempted to make dishes from major
cultures around the world.
- With a basic Sumarian level understanding of moral law, I turned my focus the abuses and self-abuses of modern
law. It became clear to that Americans are not willing to extract any measurable utility from my own mind and I would have to work alone. In my investigation I studied anti-social behavior laws as it relates to attempted mitigation
through shadow banning on social media platforms. It was my intention to philosophically prove the same
feature-set exposed by the darkweb, spreading manipulation and lies through the use of automation tools.
These abuses finally appeared as the Cambridge Analytica scandal, and I had proven to myself and my colleagues
how easy it was to betray people's trust, in my own small way. I asked multiple friends to "send compliments" to
the same person, automatically using the "Like"-button on thousands of posts, automatically inviting people to
charitable causes, and finally, scraping private message history from Facebook.
- Further investigation in to companies, I uncovered more rule breakers. Corruption from greed in public
sector was the megalomaniac version of small-business corruption. It appeared to me that nobody felt obligated
follow the established rules. These abuses were mostly in regard to data-privacy and data-integrity laws.
that actively work against their customers / client to "double dip" in the free capitalist market. Selling personal data,
manufacturing false documentation, falsifying records, pay-walls, data "lockout", extortion, lying by
ommission, gross negligence, health code violations, identity theft, systemic racism in the
State level, dismantling of homestead laws, were a few "close encounters" with Justice. Unfortunately
of these are still unmitigated. The struggle is real, indeed.
- As a residential host to nurses, foreign travelers, and local people, I learned acceptance,
tolerance, patience. I worked to overturn a living space in under 20 minutes, dining etiqette, and
learned about many different cultures from visitors. I learned landording laws, but more importantly, I learned
stewardship, as I tried to make my humble little plot profitable. I learned horticulture as it
applied to growing food in a garden and transforming sand in to soil through composting.
- I created a lush
garden in the desert that had no problem withstanding the hot Arizona summers. I studied municipal doctrine as
it related to
home ownership, and I documented minor failures of this society such as personal theft, noise ordinance, traffic
and commercial influence as the neighborhood grew around me.
- I also documented the technological advancements I
observed such as implementing street cameras at numerous intersections, implementing wireless technology for
monitoring sewage and gray water storage, traffic monitoring systems installed at night across the road,
and even the advancement of Gigabit fiber.
$10,000 over 1.5 years
As a Front-end developer at Sitewat.ch I implemented various interfaces for use with a web-security scanning tool
similar to pentest-tools.com required by Authorize.NET. I implemented web-safe standards according to Owasp.org,
and presented customers with a unified user experience for viewing possible vunerabilities in their
platform. My employer applied for many CVEs and credited all three team-mates on Google Security
- Implemented a front-end interface for customers following Owasp guidelines such as safely escaping
anywhere in the application that a "user input" such as profile fields, or parts of the URL are inserted by into
the page for user feedback. This would prevent a user from sending a forged (XSRF) link meant to trick
into clicking on something malicious (XSS).
- Participated in a DEFCON presentation of the effort, website vulnerability testing as a service using Nexus,
individual contributions of my employer to the field. Revealing dozens of new exploits, and existing
vulnerabilities on major public service platforms.
- Used modern (at the time) design principals such as responsiveness such as resizing elements on the page for
different devices and high contrast. Implemented Accessibility features, such as using alt-tags to describe
content for screen readers, tab-indexes, i18t internationalization for over 50 languages. Authentication
features such as OAuth and HTTPS for secure login.
EPIC Research & Diagnostics
Software Engineer & Network Administrator
$200,000 over 2.5 years
As a software engineer for a start-up medical company, I was required to "wear multiple hats". This meant
including myself in business planning meetings, financial discussions, option vesting, military contract
proposals, FDA DNVO
submissions, data integrity, formal process improvement.
I started by creating a data entry database to migrate written records to digital form using Microsoft SQL server
for storage and querying. Data was entered by workers from a temp-hiring agency, so I provided basic level
technical support, any time there was confusion for a field, basic training, and user account creation through
>Active Directory (Microsoft LDAP).
I wrote a kiosk to use along side the medical device to minimize network risk and simplify workflow for hospital
I implemented a Windows Business Server, complete with Exchange, networked file access, file-system revision
history, RAID mirroring, Exchange email, Active Directory, Group Policy coinciding
with a network policy that adheres to CFR 21 Part 11, general ITSM support, rackmounted servers for job
processing and on-premise "cloud"-like virtual machines with Hyper-V, Microsoft SQL Server
Finally, a colleague and I implement a "cloud"-like medical data record server in Microsoft MVC (a
successor to Master pages). This service assigned a geographic location to each medical device in the field, and
synchronized data between the client facing kiosk and the on-premise backend. The web-based system also presented
doctors with a portal to log in and review patient records remotely.
Patient records were displayed similar to the kiosk. At that time, I decided it would be a huge benefit to the
business to rewrite the client software using Window Presentation Foundation controls and remove some of
the 3rd party libraries. I was also able to reduce the processing time from 10 minutes to 10 seconds, and process
videographic snapshots of the patient scan. I wrote an automated validation process that tested the same
images with old and new versions of the client software. I used Selenium to validate the user experience of
the front-end web interface.
- Participated in business development and directional meetings such as applying for FDA approval using the DNVO
process with a precusor device called the Asira, which uses electrodes to communicate mitochondrial stresses on
- Implemented an unmaximised Small Business Server with Microsoft Exchange to minimize hosting costs and secure
intellectual property. Configured Active Directory and Group Policy to provide ubiquitous
file-system revision history across all connected systems.
- Wrote a kiosk explorer shell to minimize security risk and simplify workflow for device technicians in
the hospitals the company contracted with. Developed an automated and manual formal test process for validating
the new platform.
- Rewrote the main client application directly connected to the device, and assisted in writing web-based
medical record service for doctors to view patient information. Used Selenium for automated testing and
$300,000 over 3 years
During my tenure, the owner and I designed and developer 3 unique platforms. The first platform was primarily a
marketing and sales front-end to test the target market for the minimally viable product. Students
would enter an individual, authenticated interface and enter their class schedule. When finished, we converted
their schedule to a comprehensive week plan complete with when they should study each topic. This was to
demonstrate and teach the student about time / work / study management, and encourage interleaving.
The second product expanded on the studying idea by making the class schedule the first step in an online learning
course. The course had 15 individual lessons, each lesson used gamification by providing a video tutorial,
asking a few simple quiz questions, and then giving the student a badge reward. This was meant to incentivize the
student to come back and complete future lessons. We also implemented A/B marketing using Google marketing
goals. This presented a specific percent of our traffic with two different landing pages based on the concept we
The third product was an spaced-repitition system. "[We wanted to make somethig fun]". This was an app that
natively on iOS and had a matching web-based user experience. The app kept track of progress and then
synchronized with the backend service for persistent database storage. The web-based administration offered
teachers a way to change content that was then synchronized to every student using the app client.
Spaced-repitition is a technique Jeopardy players and medical students alike use to memorize a lot of content
about a subject. It works by presenting the entire set of information on the first day of use, then only
presenting wrongly answered flash cards on the subsequent days of use.
That is, if a card is answered incorrectly,
it's presented the next day, if the answer is correct, the next day is skipped and it is reviewed 2 days later, if
it is answered correctly again, it isn't presented until day 5, day 10, day 20, day 30, and so on. By spacing out
correct information is reviewed and increasing the freqeuncy for incorrect answer, this improve memory retention
and the ability to recall the correct answer quickly.
- Built a minimal viable product (MVP) using the Drupal platform. Created A/B marketing
pages to cater to our target market. Organized student schedules into a weekly plan in PDF format. Self-hosted
website running on a personal Linux (LAMP) server.
- Built a learning course using Symphony. Built 15 individual lessons using gamification reward system to
keep students interested. Built 6 different tools to get students to think long-term about goals and short term
organization in their weekly schedule. Integrated the weekly schedule with Google Calendar API.
- Built a spaced-repitition quiz app for memorization and active recall learning. Imported dozens
of lesson plans coiciding with elementary learning from BASIS schools. Imported a learning set for the US
Citizenship Test, requiring a basic understanding on American history.
- Simultaneously devepoled an iOS app and web-based user experience to make better use of Apple's iOS
store marketing pipeline. Connected in app content to Authorize.NET to monetize learning content. This
was intended to by a selling point for B2B (business-to-business) contracts.
$60,000 over 4 months
In a short sprint at this company, I began to observe oddities of corporate behavior. In between being nagged by
my freshly assigned project manager over elusive "employee training", and other managers about "what firm
do your represent?", I investigated the company's corporate structure. Their internet "social network" was
anything but social, built on Microsoft Sharepoint.
Internally, attitudes we moot, people came to work, kept to themselves, formed alliances with people who spoke the
same language. The building was structured more like a money-data vault with very little sunlight. The basement
floor I was assigned to was full of anti-social contractors. Champagne Charlie could afford to keep me
around but I was let go for my "attitude".
While trying to rationalize why such a significant company would intentionally "Manage me out" (yes, this
is a real strategy), I had my first experience with Toast-masters. This seems like a great way for employees to
get to know one another, and learn about public speaking. Charle's Schwab apparently offered "learning
tracks" to their employees and would sponsor testing and certifications. In particular a track to becoming an ITSM
"security manager" with zero coding experience.
One of the more exciting events was a "Kaizen" workshop formed for employees. This was a good way to
introduce continuous integration style practices, in a formalized way, to people who haven't studied
Agile and require lots of structure. Tried not to take offense when another employee passive-agressively
expressed that I "needed to get up to speed". Out of this meeting, my team was inspired to brainstorm ways their
project applies to business needs. This was great because I had a lot of experience brainstorming outside
of the basement, but all ideas during the session were still confined to a very small box in the form of a
window-less conference room.
- Learned the corporate structure through a Microsoft Sharepoint based social networking application. Helped
managers identify "key stake-holders" for supporting our project's effort. Integrated with "big personalities"
by being friendly and trying not to pry into previous experiences.
- Realized one of the major reasons their simple project, "remove secondary access to databases through an
internet request tool" was so difficult to accomplish because they insisted on using Rational Unified Process.
Charles Schwab heavily relies on IBM and RUP is an IBM product.
- Tried to navigate "big personalities" from a tremendous project manager as I asked to help with timeline
goals. Tried to retrain my managers to approach RUP holistically, that is, all documentation should have been
developed simultaneously, rather than sequentially. The methodology in RUP doesn't make this clear, but drawing
from past miseries using the process at the medical company, I saw this as a major failure point.
- Failed to communicate the importance of brainstorming topics and diversifying your environment as a means to
creatively solving a problem. Introduced managers to a document control system (DCS). Configured a Microsoft
Sharepoint site to link to "artifacts" within the DCS.
- By the end of the experience I had realized I was being intentionally ignored as a part of an external growth
process. Thank you to Charles Schwab for being large enough to bank-roll my failures. I was also emotionally
detached when I realized an 80 year old mainframer came to work with an eye infection instead of taking care of
herself and retiring (since she worked for a retirement company), I viewed this as flagrantly hypocritical and
Senior Software Engineer
$100,000 over 14 months
The same day of my release from my previous company, I was invited to interview at a small-business
marketing company. This was particularly interesting because my father's manufacturing company is a client. I saw
this as both a way to better understand marketing, and even improve upon a product his company relied on. With his
advice to "work for a small-business", I was excited to contribute.
During my tenure, realizing my propensity for quelling disorderly behavior, I was as minimally disorderly
as possible. I tested networking features by using reddit.com/NSFW from the bathroom. They did indeed implement a
censhorship system on their internet connection, the results were abstract to me, something I'd like to see
changed for remote-workers and personal-accountability.
Human Resources implemented a policy for "unlimited paid-time-off". This is a psychological trick to get people to
take less time off, feeling like it's always there when they need it. I worked an entire year, about 3,500 hours
learning NodeJS without taking a single day off, even during the Christmas holiday when most of the office was
empty. Ironically, when I first entered the company, a woman was begging for time off over conference calls. This
is a failing policy and people should be compensated fairly for their time.
The development process consisted of employees trying to avoid an antiquated megolith written with overly burdened
state-management design principals ("feature completness", see Microsoft Code-Complete). When a change was
integrated the system would need to be update after work hours on Wednesday nights. If the change caused a failure
in the test-automation suite that was both precious and lacking "integration tests" the entire change would
be rolled back and attempted again the next night. It was the absolute worse possible method of avoiding
continuous integration (in software, solutions were widely available from major distributors).
The company offered a "learning track" and modes for self-improvement and even made their Job description sound
like they would pay for, or contribute to my education. At one point LinkedIn Learning was advertised to employees
in the office, and they offered sponsorship. I spent the entire month programming on the work project, and using
my secondary monitor to absorb programing and management courses on LinkedIn. When the month trial period expired,
LinkedIn Learning billed my personal account instead of the business account I had joined through.
Eventually, the work became too much, when I witnessed other managers in the office yelling at my boss to change
the pricing model to perpetuate the multi-level marketing sales. I offered to take my boss to lunch after he told
me that "the company has high expectations of me" without formalizing or writing those expectations down. Employee
reviews were conducted through ADP, at the beginning of the year he asked me for "what goals I would like to
accomplish". These goals were never readdressed, and at the end of the year, the goals my boss wrote into ADP had
nothing to do with the goals I sent him at the beginning of the year. My boss criticized my in front of other
employees in addition to the criticism in our monthly one-on-one meetings. I had enough, I was being "Managed
- Built a marketing front end that integrates with Zuora (the billing platform like Authorize.NET). Used Angular
JS to create a new login form, account settings, buy funnel, billing statement (PDF generated by Zuora),
and itemized purchase page.
- Integrated Zuora with Eloqua, an enterprise email marketing solution from Oracle (similar to SendGrid). Failed
to explain to my boss Amazon AWS doesn't support C# unless it is built on .NET Core and would require a rewrite
of the entire platform. Lost a month of effort and switched to NodeJS which was much more widely support on AWS.
Used API calles of both Zuora and Eloqua to create a micro-service, or serverless function (not
sure of the correct name, lots of terminology was being thrown around at the time)
- Formed alliances with the marketing team that was competing for the same ownership over the product sales
feature of the customer facing website. Validated and automated a manual process costing the company no less
that $10,000 per year. It felt awkward to change teams within the same company, so I didn't apply for
alternative roles they advertised even thought they matched my skill-set.
- Realized I was being Managed out when my boss told me the effort working with multiple marketing
managers to automate and validated a manual billing process was "a waste". I saw the effort as a simple
equation, if a company spends $10,000 per year on a manual process, and pays me to automate the process, it is
somewhere between 1 - 2 years of operating automatically before they save and repurpose the money that would
have been spent on manual labor. The employees involved we all ecstatic to never have to do this again, but my
boss couldn't be concinved.
- For the first time in my life, I felt I needed to take control of my life, instead of just taking things as
they come. I quit. It was obvious people didn't want to communicate with me decently.
$60,000 over 2 years
Realizing my mind wasn't fit for corporate or the small-business world, I turned my study to something more
philosphical. I tried to get to know people through hosting. I applied for a job in San Franscisco with digit.co.
I realized quickly the financial sector would not be kind to me.
I left the US for 3 months to live in Poland. I cashed out all my credit cards. I learned what it meant to live
with a packed suitcase. I studied philosophy, The Bible, Hinduism, Buddhism, Judaism, and spiritual religions. I
navigated a foriegn country with my wife, I was amazed by how things had progressed having not been to Europe for
10 years. Internet was widely available, dozens of American services like Uber and Airbnb were widely
available. I was amazed that censorship of American TV programs was still common practice. Despite being an
America and paying for HBO, I wasn't allowed to watch the same HBO programs in Europe.
I became a father in Poland after American doctors told my wife that she would have a natural birth if they
decided that was the safest method of delivery. I saw a pattern of abuse of authority when doctors now
promote cesarean surgeries. They can collect more money from insurance companies, not because the recovery or
delivery is safer. Doctors told my wife that "In America the doctor decides what is best for you, and if you don't
like it you can go back to Poland." after she requested an episiotomy. Doctors in America don't practice medicine
once they leave college and get to a specific level of authority.
I Poland we enjoyed many beautiful gardens. My wife enjoyed speaking her native language and I enjoyed learning
it. She taught me about history, and I realized I could stand on a side-walk that was older than all of United
States history. I was catered to at hospitals. I walked in one day with a kidney pain and was able to talk to a
doctor immediately, they prescribed a rosemary oil based medicine and I didn't owe thousands or even hundreds of
dollars for the visit.
The doctors treated my wife with respect. They didn't question where she came from, they did ask why she came to
Poland and we explained how doctors have no problem betraying people's trust in American medicine. The hospital
refunded the money we spent on consultations we had before paying for a birthing package. This was absolutely
astounding compared to Phoenix, Arizona doctors that wanted nearly $20,000 up-front with no refunds should
something happen, that price does not include the hospital bill. We were able to pay for child delivery out of
Airline companies act differently in Europe, almost like they want people to travel easily. The only difficulty
was in Sweden when they required we come to the airport 4 hours ahead of time with a printed copy of our baording
pass, the charged a $40 fine for printing out my ticket and being late after my wife argued with them not to
cancel our flight. This was a flagrant abuse of power and the women behind us was not so lucky, they cancelled her
flight. We flew Nordic Airlines before it was renamed to Norse Atlantic because of American politics not being
able to compete with a government that subsidized flights thanks to being a large oil-refining country.
We encountered systemic "dragging of feet" visiting government offices and nagivating paperwork. We completed a
Consulary Report of Birth Abroad, and gained United States and Polish citizenship (dual-citizenship)
for our first born son within
the month following his birth. I realized in the hospital that I'm living in a time period where circumcision
could be considered a "form of abuse", this weighed on me heavily, but ultimately after researching the genitals
couldn't be cleaned until 3 years of age, we decided to circumcise. This was an "uncommon request" hospital staff
explained, but they were able to source a female Jewish surgeon from New York. I'm amazed at how perfectly well
our trip went despite politics making it appear as though The Old World is behind America technologically.
American doctors, unfamiliar with Noam Chomsky's opinions on American Exceptionalism, explained to us that America
is the best place in the world for medicine. I've laid this false information to rest, it is banter and nothing
more, people are mostly the same everywhere, some ambitious and educated, some lazy and avoiding work, and some
happy to do food deliveries with American software platforms.
- Discovered Poland an amazing American and Schengen ally. Practiced the Polish language I learned
through Duolingo. Consulted with doctors on child birth. Confronted government paperwork with agility and
punctuality. Avoided having my marraige certificate stolen from me with a side note of casual rascism directed
at my wife, stemming from Jewish inheritance. Lived happily, and nearly applied for a job setting up
A/V home automation equipment in Wilonow, a suburb of Warschawa.
- Learned about child birth, episiotomy, and catering to a new-born and a wounded wife. Thanks to the surgical
precision of the episiotomy my wife was able to heal and nearly stop bleeding after only 3 days of discomfort.
She had her "disolvable" stitches removed after 3 days because they poked her and the bleeding already stopped.
I cooked for her every day in a small apartment loft booked through Airbnb.
- Navigated government offices and paperwork to complete applications for a United States and Polish
citizenship. Gained dual-citizenship for our son, and felt a great reward from having the Consular Report
Birth Abroad. Felt like a diplomat visting multiple government offices. In Poland, asking a government worker to
do work felt more like asking for a favor, where in America paying a fee feels more like an expectation that
work will get done.
- Visited gardens and absorbed Polish history through visiting old shops, and castles downtown. Relearned how to
enjoy people. Learned about cooking and philosophy. Learned about religion and politics as "Seperation of Church
and State" is an American ideal. In Poland, government offices are heavily influence by Cathoicism, and that
affects policies like abortion being illegal (2022 in Arizona this seems relevant). In American politics,
seperation of church and state is an "ideal", ideal means ideally, politics are fair for all beliefs, but that
isn't always how law turns out in practice.
- Realizing this distinction, I turned my foundational knowledge of religion towards to law. I tried to search
for philosophical dichotomies where the law doesn't match "ideal" situations, where the law has a short-coming
of morality. Personally, I wanted to understand my own experience with the law as it related to being lied to
over a Solar leasing program from Tesla (then SolarCity owned by Elon Musk's brother in law).
idTech 3 Game Engine
Game Engine Developer
$60,000 over 2 years
When I first approached this game-engine, I intended to improve the loading experience of QuakeJS. QuakeJS is a
Web Assembly / emscripten port of Quake 3 to the web-browser. The loading process took about 10 minutes over
cellular network, and desktop was not much better. It first loads the Trial Demo content, about 300 MBs of data.
Then it loads additional game data to run custom levels ("maps" as they are called in game).
My approach was to minimize the number of line changes stylistically. That is, rather than moving and renaming
functions, I would use a pre-compiler macro to create the necessary logical breaks in the function, then call the
new broken up function in the same sequence that QuakeJS did. Since I already had a working implementation, it was
easy for me to see if my change caused a breaking error, or if it was indeed calling the function just like the
original port, only with less code changes.
Once completed with the code changes, I iterated on development trying to find the most burdensome pieces of code.
i.e. The parts that added the most complexity through new variables, lots of line changes, bug reports,etc. One of
the biggest hurdles was this idea of a file manifest.json. This was hard to create, and people ran into errors
trying to generate additional content through the repack.js script. The author's intention was to repackage game
assets to be smaller and compatible with web. I reapproached this issue 3 times during my development.
Once I had a solid foundation and a working Web Assembly build, I attempted to distill out of emscripten only the
system-level APIs that it required to run this particular engine. I expected to double the performance, and that's
exactly what came from the effort. By removing the complexity implemented by emscripten's burdensome file-system
APIs, extra work being done by the GL emulator, and memory leaking from Audio spatialization with SDL2, I was able
to double the performance. Maps that used to only run well at 30 frames per second (FPS) could now run at 60FPS
and in-general I could run the engine at over 200 FPS inside the browser window.
I then turned my focus to game developement, I wanted to implement a Portal system similar to prioprietary
closed-source forks. I was able to adapt some of the code left-over from the original game that was left unused in
the source code. I copied some of the models from another Portal implementation and implemented the missing
functionality to display droppable portal or wall mounted portals like the game Portal from Valve. This was an
interesting project because it required a fairly in depth understanding of renderer code and limitations enforced
from legacy systems.
I realized this work was much too fun for one person and I reached out to other community leaders like to owner of
lvlworld.com with an idea to present all the lvlworld maps in 3D as a fun exploration tool for visitors. He loved
the idea and eventually rewrote my entire effort to his own accord. I felt terrible about not being able to
support the website anymore, but ultimately it felt like a win having another proprietary, closed source
implementation as a good learning experience for the owner, Tig.
- Taught myself the C, C++, Web Assembly, and emscripten eco-system based on examplary work from inolen and
QuakeJS. Learned to communicate with other community leaders. Learned there is a heavy bias towards not
violating GPL licenses with other GPL licenses. This is a huge roadblock for software, but I understand no one
would agree with me. They just don't see discovery and learning as being more important than respecting
propriety. The propietors of many engine forks don't feel the need to share their work with anyone.
- Learned to use Discord. Assisted in other people's discovery path by answering technical questions about the
engine. Provided line-by-line demonstrations of how I might have solved a similar problem they are facing. Tried
to built community membership by encouraging developers to explore a variety of communities as they search for
answers to their design questions. For example, if one community already tackled display unicode, it's possible
the licensing would allow them to reuse code for their own open-source implementation.
- Contributed to open-source projects and was a member of GitHub Arctic Vault. Eventually stopped working on the
project entirely due to legal threats. I asked community members about licensing and they were disinterested at
best. The understanding of legality was more important than the developmental outcome of my effort.
- Learned a lot about vector graphics, linear algebra, graphics hardware, 3D algorithms. Learned about my own
mind and my ability to absorb knowledge and experience from working with other people. Learned to enjoy software
development again, it felt like I was doing it for myself instead of being told to do it for someone else like
in the corporate or small-business environment. Learned the process of learning is sometimes more important than
- Learned to use Twitch and Youtube live streaming. Learned to use Web Assembly in a vast array of projects,
porting software to the web browser is very fascinating to me, even though it feels like propriatary
close-source companies are trying to destroy the free and open web. Learned to filter out which parts of my
experience are relevant, extreme, or unnecessary.
- Learned about whole body health, and how mitochondrial stressors are represented by low-level light detection
eminated from the body (Kirlian imaging). A previously thought psuedo-science has scientific backing when
Eukyotes "powerhouse" the mitochondria is treated like a radio signal.
- Learned to expand my learning through better study methods. Iterating through study techniques every day to
exercise my eididic memory. Continued my studies using the interleaving method so my mind never gets fixated on
a single box for too long. Increasing blood-flow and brain activity by learning construction, physical exercise,
and new techniques in software development.
- Improved my spiritual health by trying to reconcile religious beliefs with scientific possibilities through
extensive study of multiple world religion. Began to understand the patterns how many beliefs are built on top
of other beliefs. Development a constradictarian mindset by question the belief systmes of colleagues that only
focus on their own "1 true religion". Quelled my own personal philosphies in favor of philosphy learned versus
philosphy implemented in my behavior.
- Learning game engine specifics like physics interactions with many entities, 3D geometric spaces, linear
algebra, familiarity with floating point hardware (GPUs), graphics processing pipelines, Web Assembly, and the
C, C++, Makefile eco-system.
- Read and familiarized myself with dozens of statutes including Arizona Landlord/Lesser laws, CPPA (California
Privacy Act), GDPR (European General Data Protection Regulation), CFR 21 Part 11, PCI-DSS (Payment Card Industry
- Data Security Standards), Title 47 (Federal Communication Regulation pending), Arizona Traffic Laws (in it's
entirety), Arizona Property Statutes (Title 33), HIPAA, tax regulations, dozens of apriori relevant to main
stream outcomes, dozens of encyclopedia entries related to law and regulation.
- Overcoming childhood trauma and prayer as a methodology for improving memory retention (in progress). Taking
notes on oscillating thought every second. It appears that thinking about possibility or planning the future is
the opposite of living in the moment. Possible expansion of intuition by oscillating between possibility and
then focusing on the moment, blurring vision of current scenery, then focusing on nothing, even the word
"nothing" in my mind to detach. Hard to oscillate at 60 BPM, might be the key to controlling theta waves.
Putting slight pressure with my hand on the back of my head helps to clear thoughts, might help with motion
sickness. Indictation not to pop my knuckles or crack my joints, conflict with chiropracty (in progress)?
- NodeJS - 10,000+ hours - Expert
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- 120 hours of LinkedIn Learning Management Courses
- 10,000+ hours studying Philosophy, Psychology, and Theology (I'm like an encyclopedia of barely useful
- The full ET experience thanks to Nikola Tesla.
BA - Bachelor's of Science in Computer Science, Northern Arizona University, Flagstaff, Arizona, 2010 (GPA 2.5)
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