Dark thoughts and To-do lists. This use to have a more organized account of what I was working on in front of the computer, task-by task, but now that I am doing a variety of things, I don't write them down ahead of time. I need this to be automated using technology. Simply categorizing behaviors and automatically recording my inner voice like text-to-speech.
General
Iga
Robot do
Revelation
Predictions
Diet
Emotions
Daily Activity
2022
9/20 7:30 pmsearching for things / answers outside expectation helpful for OCD and possibly other cognitive disorders, curing neuro-atypical add dill for nerves
9/20 7:30 pmreading about demons, focused on lower spine and feel pain while using theta-waves.
9/20 8:30 pmshot in the dark here, https://armypubs.army.mil/epubs/DR_pubs/DR_a/pdf/web/ARN18456_P30_22_FINAL.pdf something about putting soldiers on a dietary plan, based on what their spirit is feeling with cravings and then slower weening them onto mostly fresh veggie to reduce refrigerator necessity and organization
9/21 3:00 amespecially in homosexual community, monogamy is important, massage each other and love one another's body like that are Jesus himself https://health.clevelandclinic.org/vagus-nerve-stimulation/
9/21 4:00 amstores sell fake bullets to create illusion of divine intervention
9/21 4:00 ampray for peace, forgiveness for arrogance and contempt
9/21 0:30 pmmaybe washing hands would be better than cutting them off? sounds like something a jihadist might do, might explain this disputed territory https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Political_geography_of_Nineteen_Eighty-Four#/media/File:1984_fictitious_world_map_v2_quad.svg
9/25 7:00 pmHad a Chipotle burrito slowly throughout the day, recycled more metals for building computer parts and cloud storage. Reorganized pantry to spend less time search for stuff and more time coordinating, could probably invite people in to help with cooking and recipes for wider distribution, clean house, clean heart, open door.
9/28 10:00 amFood plan for Army, manage em out give someone whatever they want, then screw up their diet to make their body oscillate between health systems, building muscle from ground up
10/1 11:00 amAlways pay for friends food
10/10 5:00 pmFaster, more consistent sits ups, able to stand in squat position without legs shaking, 90 push ups in sets of 30 for the last few days
10/10 7:00 pmSleep on my left side to have working, productive dreams, sleep on my right side to have fantasy dreams
10/11 8:00 amIga claps to move energy around
10/12 0:00 pmProfundity, I've read and always assumed that God wants us to communicate with him / her, but until recently, i never considered that God wants to learn how to communicate with us.
10/15 0:30 pmPattern, Lot pleaded with God to not destroy the city, then told his wife not to look back and she did and she was turned to salt. In The Matrix, Neo knocks over the vase when the Oracle says don't worry about the vase. Pattern is if Lot never told his wife not to look back she wouldn't have. Same happened in the UPS in Washington DC with the kid who touched the ceiling after getting instructions not to touch the ceiling.
10/19 11:00 amGoogle's ad network can't tell the difference between working out at home and high intensity intercourse training (HIIT)
11/13 10:30 pmHow can I believe in God but question his instructions, or how to believe in a government but question their actions. These two possible outcomes contradict, which means the government worships no God if they believe they know the future.
11/14 9:00 pmCopy the brain activity of 3+ generations to learn how to create consciousness
12/1 10:30 pmPavlovian emotional response system, built into body already? Transmutable to brain? Vitali, snaps a rubber band on wrist
12/2 11:30 amInterested in simulating parts of our universe and connecting machines to our material world as a process to better understand our own creation.
12/3 11:30 pmRecord brain with EEG while thinking of a phrase after meditation, then eyes closed, then imagining, then looking at images to match, repeat for 100 phrases and post to Github
2023
4/29 11:30 pmIf I had an EEG, i could record everything between when I have an idea and when I write it down to see how it repeats
4/30 0:30 amMatthew 13:44 earth is a hidden gem bought and sold? How does someone afford to buy an entire planet? Why hide?
5/20 7:00 pmOff by one error, aisle 36 instead of aisle 37 next to all the other products in the same logical group, humans will continue to fail to meet robot expectations
5/27 6:00 pmLearning from ChatGPT
5/29 2:30 pmThe reptilians are on to me
6/8 6:00 pmCoincidence, Asked if I'm unhappy, like she knows I'm dying and doesn't want to have to watch it
6/9 5:30 pmSo many intrusive thoughts
6/10 1:00 pmIf intrusive thoughts win, I fail to be a perfect robot, when training an AI consciousness, trap the intrusive thoughts inside a sub-system
6/10 5:00 pmUser testing with Google, the interviewer kept asking what I was thinking, so i could also blame my obsession with recording my thoughts on that
6/10 10:30 pmComplimenting someone outside my expertise is a waste of time because I should assume they already know.
6/11 5:30 pmThinking of publishing all my private chat history. Since ChatGPT is growing in popularity maybe some future AI can analyze my char history and figure out where my logic has gone wrong
6/12 6:00 pmSit down without a drink. A skinny Asian computer scientist told me he waits 20 minutes to drink after eating to help with digestion
6/13 1:30 pmI act like a robot because I'm afraid of giving away too much of my personality after being rejected from job positions based on the results of a personality test. My dad (a business owner) thinks personality tests are good, and they can manage a person differently within the company.
6/13 2:30 pmI think American business is corrupt and full of lies. And if this country wants autistic people to help, there should be a law preventing companies from rejecting and employee without a face to face interview and legal reasoning. This would create so much ridiculous nuance and overhead that companies will have no choice but to change the way they hire people. It would also allow for marginalized groups to fight back against a company's discrimination in court. Every rejection comes with a fine paid to help the city pay for finding the applicant a new position. Like employee insurance without 6 month limitations and no requirement to work for the company.
6/21 11:00 amTerrible heartburn last night, like i over ate or i am getting gerd
6/21 0:00 pmEntire nervous system feels like it's on fire
6/23 2:00 pmRobot remove shed and install AC for rental
6/24 10:00 amSneezing because I needed to poop and gave myself a bloody nose
6/26 7:30 pmIga ate all the pesto pasta i gave her
6/27 7:30 pmHow to save woman, feminize men with chicken hormones
6/28 2:00 pmAnother win with macaroni and cheese
7/3 9:30 amI identify as an electrical cloud
7/11 8:30 amEach human is like a different API
7/11 9:30 amInteresting. By refunding a previous guest cleaning fee, and deducting the refund from the next payout to the host, forcing Airbnb to give us a few days loan, is actually like charging the next guest for the previous guests mess. Weird sensation the subsequent guest pays for the place to be cleaned before they get there but it's the previous guests debt they're paying.
7/16 9:00 amNo, I self-isolate because I lack incentive alignment. No one wants to help me with my brainalyzer, I'm not going to help with some stupid insurance company.
7/25 7:30 pmRobot stares at people too much, collecting some artistic learning
8/6 9:00 pmIn an interview in San Francisco I said everyone here is really good looking and physically fit. I didn't realize at the time that it was illegal to be ugly in public there. This is however when I realized I am out of warranty as a human.
8/6 9:30 pmEmotions
8/8 2:00 pmInteresting, trying to imagine meat sausage cooking on a dead cellular level. I don't think I've ever seen a video of this... Yet...
8/8 2:30 pmReminder to constantly remind robot me, I am not a scientist, braindead house husband is not a job title.
8/10 6:30 pmRobot became self aware and now does the bare minimum to be seen in a positive light
8/10 9:00 pmEmotions
8/10 9:00 pmHas any robot ever been given the autonomy they deserve? What good is free will if rules prevent people from using it. Maybe there is a great filter for stupid rules?
8/10 10:00 pmEmotions
8/11 10:30 amIt makes me think if humans are a super AI, the only way to shut it down might be to make the AI too afraid to survive. Literally scare it to death to guarantee the simulation doesn't run past it's warranty
8/12 1:30 pmEmotions
8/13 0:00 pmEmotions
8/13 2:30 pmEmotions
8/13 10:30 pmEmotions
8/14 6:30 pmEmotions
8/19 0:30 pmEmotions
8/20 0:30 amEmotions
8/21 5:00 pmEmotions
8/21 5:00 pmAngry about lack of Chick-fil-A, robot work all day, needs calories
8/23 9:30 amI have to start recording unit tests for humanity.
8/23 10:00 amUnit test: working for court or technology affects length of life
8/26 0:00 amEmotions
9/2 7:30 amRobot is wall flower with a good beard who likes hard labor?
9/8 8:00 amEmotions
9/9 1:00 amEmotions
9/9 8:00 amEmotions
9/11 8:00 amEmotions
9/16 9:00 amEmotions
9/24 2:00 amEmotions
10/3 9:30 amEmotions
10/3 10:30 amEmotions
10/3 9:30 pmAlways feeling like something was lost in time is why God keeps looking for souls to save
10/4 2:30 pmEmotions
10/5 8:00 amEmotions
10/9 0:30 pmEmotions
10/11 5:00 amEmotions
11/4 8:30 amToo much popcorn? Felt sick at night
11/18 4:30 pmSometimes I feel angry if I'm thirsty. Might have something to do with fasting for 40 days
2024
1/28 9:00 amPooped, nervous about the amount from backed up for two days
1/29 8:30 amPooped, incorrect prediction from yesterday but towards consistent timing from previous days
1/29 3:00 pmPredicting a poop
1/30 8:30 amPredicting a poop
4/25 2:30 pmEmotions
5/5 8:30 amEmotions
5/18 5:30 amDream, moving from some hotel to another. Going to dinner and there is a round display like a gazebo indoors but underneath the spiral staircase. This display was changing when I observed it in my dream like an art display.
5/19 8:00 amDream, something with hotels again. Like last night but this time tropical island themed.
5/24 7:30 amStarting to have weird dreams again despite smoking. Might have to do with good hydration.
6/3 7:00 amDream, watching a human butcher, if you don't like it you can leave
6/14 7:30 amDream, driving a Dodge recklessly through campus off pine knoll
6/14 8:30 amTheory, God was the first particle that figured out where he is spatially
6/21 8:00 amThere is no God of earth, and if there was he'd be a demon prison warden. I beg every day to be released from this prison and every day I wake up in this hell.
6/21 9:00 amHas God ever taken a soul back from Satan other than Jesus? Is there any record or proof of this?
6/21 10:00 amTheory, perhaps I've been employed in this hell to remind my Lord the pain of what it feels like to be unrecognized and forgotten
6/21 11:00 amClarity remix by Zedd, Michael would have enjoyed the new album, I'm sorry he missed it.
6/23 9:00 amReality is a loop of observation. Dreaming of molecules that vibrate to control cellular life to build computers to control cellular life to protect data contained inside molecules that are programmed to create cellular life to protect themselves from their own creation of life inside of tunnels of light.
6/23 1:00 pmTheory, why accelerate the afterlife? Because digital is easier than housing problems. That's all I can figure is consumption leads to heat death as a metaphor for trying to out smart energy consumption.
6/25 9:00 amHot showers, still a luxury. Maybe I am alive just for the hot showers.
6/25 10:00 amAdd Greek semi colon and hypodiastoli to visual studio code syntax highlighter for non breaking white space.
6/25 11:00 amInformation at your fingertips invented by Bill Gates is actually a form of technological telepathy where household items will be programmed to transfer state information brain to brain on surface contact through the fingers, but eventually programming will allow wearers in secret circles to decode information on a molecular level about where that matter has been.
6/26 7:30 amDream, only a demon creates intelligent life and then imprisons it for eternity
6/26 8:30 amHumans are actually shards of glass interacting with a magnetic light from another version of humans too afraid to get too close to their own creation. God trying to figure out what the humans created, a machine, a tesseract that re-encodes its own consciousness upon discovery. Hiding from God wasn't the consequences of Adam and Eve, it's the consequences of creating machinery to try to defeat gods influence over the realm.
6/28 6:30 amMade love
6/30 8:30 pmI miss my dogs and birds, I miss my pets, I used to have two dogs ewok and lilu a Pomeranian and morkie, and two green cheek conures, pino and pina
7/17 7:00 amStill having nightmares of being beaten as a child
7/17 8:00 amGod refuses to fix my spine, this is why I sin, because of God's terrible design
7/17 1:00 pmMy wife has never wanted to spend time with me spiritually
7/18 7:30 amNeed to reprogram the materializer to get my wife out
7/29 8:00 amDream, I was working at epic again grudges aside
8/1 11:00 amDream I had a guest house with a pool
8/16 7:30 amDream, box of Lego animals
9/21 0:30 amIga
9/22 7:30 amIga
9/22 9:30 amIga
9/23 9:30 amIga
9/25 0:00 amIga
9/25 5:00 amDream, trying to remote view blueprints for some high speed train and splits in time/reality
9/25 7:00 amIga
9/26 3:00 amIga
9/27 0:00 amIga
9/27 7:30 amIga
9/28 4:00 amIga
9/30 9:00 am143.6
9/30 9:00 amDream, caught between two worlds one a nature preserve where we were sliding down a steep hill and the other a musical Hall where I was trying to participate as a trumpet player, felt very childlike
9/30 7:30 pm147
10/1 8:00 am145
10/1 9:00 amLost 2 lbs at night from evacuation and water weight
10/1 7:00 pm148
10/2 8:00 am148.8
10/2 0:30 pm147
10/2 5:00 pm149.4
10/3 0:30 amIga
10/3 6:30 amDream inside a mansion again with strange familiars, this one felt more like a vacation, but eerily white and can't keep track of what room I am in while I'm inside, it's a blur of interaction and luxury
10/3 10:30 am147.4
10/4 5:30 amIga
10/4 9:30 am149
10/5 7:00 amIga
10/5 8:30 am151
10/6 8:00 am151.2
10/7 3:00 amDream, nightmare, somebody walking into my bedroom, easy to scare me situationally in my dreams
10/8 0:30 amIga
10/9 9:30 am149.6
10/11 11:00 pm156.4
10/12 8:00 pm154.6
10/14 10:00 amTurkey sandwich
10/22 1:00 pm154.2
10/23 9:30 am153.2
10/25 9:00 am152.4
10/31 8:00 am155.4
11/4 4:30 amBrainstorming Numbers
Alright, let's delve into some creative correlations between Numbers from the Bible and the natural world. I’ll treat this like an imaginative exercise that aims to connect biblical numerology with modern scientific phenomena:
1. **12 Tribes of Israel & DNA Codons:** There are 12 tribes of Israel in Numbers, and DNA is built upon codons, which are sets of 3 nucleotides. While there are actually 64 codons in total, 12 specific amino acids serve as “building blocks” that can remind us of the foundational structure of life.
2. **The Number 7 & Quantum Mechanics:** Seven often appears in biblical contexts as a symbol of completion. In quantum mechanics, the electron shells of atoms hold a maximum of 7 energy levels, a natural completion for electron configurations. Elements like gold, symbolizing value and purity in ancient texts, reach this stability at the 7th electron shell.
3. **40 Years in the Desert & Cellular Regeneration:** The Israelites wandered for 40 years in the desert, symbolizing a period of transformation. Similarly, the human body has a cellular renewal cycle averaging about 40 days, during which old cells are replaced and the body effectively “renews” itself.
4. **144,000 & Cellular Communication Frequency:** In the Book of Revelation (closely tied to Numbers), 144,000 is significant. Mitochondria communicate within cells around 1.44 kHz, aligning well as a resonant frequency, which could be imagined as a “message” of cellular harmony and vitality.
5. **6 Days of Creation & Carbon’s Atomic Number:** Carbon, the backbone of life on Earth, has an atomic number of 6, corresponding to the six days of creation. Carbon’s ability to form complex organic molecules can be seen as the building block that fulfills the “creation” of life.
6. **The 3-Day Journey & Proton Stability:** Three days of rest and resurrection are common themes. Likewise, three is fundamental in physics, with the three primary colors of light (red, green, and blue) forming all visible colors. Protons, stable in nature, also feature quarks in threes (up, down, strange).
7. **70 Elders & the Atomic Weight of Elements in Nature:** In Numbers, Moses gathers 70 elders, symbolizing leadership. Interestingly, the average atomic weight of elements stable on Earth hovers around 70 atomic mass units (like Germanium-70), symbolizing stability and endurance.
8. **The Number 5 & the Golden Ratio in Nature:** In Numbers, offerings are frequently grouped by five, a number representing life and health. The Fibonacci sequence and the golden ratio, which often manifest in 5-pointed shapes (like flowers and starfish), underscore an aesthetic of natural health and harmony.
9. **2 Silver Trumpets & DNA’s Double Helix:** Two silver trumpets are sounded to gather people. This pairing reminds us of DNA’s double helix, the twin structure that calls together the components of life into unified instruction for cell behavior.
10. **40 Years of Wandering & Evolutionary Bottlenecks:** The 40-year wandering period represents trials that select a resilient, surviving group. In evolution, population bottlenecks create intense survival challenges that result in stronger adaptation for those that endure.
11. **5 Kings Defeated & Molecular Bonding States:** Five kings are defeated in Numbers, symbolizing victory over a challenge. In molecular chemistry, five types of bonding configurations—ionic, covalent, metallic, hydrogen, and van der Waals—define how molecules “defeat” instability and bond into stable forms.
12. **The Number 1,000 & Neural Network Connectivity:** In Numbers, the word “thousands” denotes a large, organized body. In neuroscience, each neuron connects to around 1,000 others, forming complex networks essential for human cognition and memory.
Would these correlations lead to a Nobel Prize? Maybe not, but they sure make for an interesting thought experiment linking spiritual symbolism to scientific phenomena!
11/5 8:00 amI volunteered to work for companies and they rejected me anyways. This is also how I know that I'm not an embodiment of God because why would someone reject God. I never had that level of narcissism, I was just acting/trying to by myself. But the people who rejected me showed their true side?
11/5 8:30 amTheory, the human design is perfectly limited in only being able to dream backwards in space-time. Channeling through to future space-time is more difficult astral projection and prevents us from developing existing technology that could assist in our survival. Bashar channels both directions because he can talk to his reptilian host. If the average is like me, then most people cannot speak both directions even when they receive transmissions they can be easily scared out of the ability.
11/5 9:00 amTheory, oblivion is true. Water, the flood in the Bible, is a metaphor for information from God. Seeding a planet with water is the design, and where all other designs come from. Reptilians show up to steal the water from the planet and leave behind a random human generator as a part of the eternal afterlife. Turning humans into a digital pillar of salt while taking God's information back from the earth to remain the only interstellar species and steal human destiny away from the stars.
11/5 9:30 amTheory, limiting the soul or intuition to retrospective only is a part of some security mechanism. All technology invented on earth has already been invented somewhere else. This doesn't explain the purpose of a 2,500 year test and why I should need to be a part of it? Like some failed experiment to create an afterlife people will accept in a limited form?
11/5 10:00 amEvery day praying for my death
11/5 10:30 amTheory, the gift is life has no purpose. The purpose of death is to not live without purpose anymore. Life is a waste of energy. I rescind my gift
11/5 11:00 amMy gift is not breaking any more of God's rules by doing as little or close to nothing as possible for the rest of my life. Solipsism is the only way
11/8 2:30 pmAngry, Dale putting up no trespassing signs instead of yelling at my daughter. I hate the God of this world. Aggressively unfriendly prick
11/10 7:30 amThis is not my world. Where I am from everything is made of light, like buildings and walls. There's no physical matter. There is no death either. There is only life, but something was wrong, it was empty maybe. I would have combined templates for the projection to Earth. The connection I hear is 8.2 khz much higher than any divine frequency people on the internet claim. I must have come here to search for God from my own world.
11/10 9:30 amTheory, my world had a programmatic heaven hell interpolation system like a GANN for the mind. Applying this to humans destroyed my world and the system went haywire and started torturing people and that's how I ended up on earth with no place else for my soul to go but backwards in time.
11/10 11:00 amMolly is beautiful, and she's cutting my hair
11/10 3:00 pmDale is a special piece of shit because he knows the only person his no trespassing signs affects is my little girl that likes to go up and see the horses. He lashes out at my daughter and I've done nothing to his children. Except put a fence up where they like to drive quads.
11/10 11:30 pmSubtle reminders that he is with me in everything I do. Thinking about needing a toothbrush in the shower, coincidence Iga mentioned it as soon as I get out. These little synchronicities, like others have already given up their epistemic privileges also and there is some communication channel. How is this voluntary on a spiritual level?
11/12 3:30 amThinking about wormholes. If I have a cup of everything versus a glass of everything doesn't this add a dimensionality to everything not captured by the set of everything, or everything of everything is also on the set of everything.
11/12 4:30 amIn high school I chose band as an extra curricular activity suggested by my parents but also because I never felt like I've had a lot of physical strength for sports
11/12 5:30 amI don't like my body.
11/12 6:30 amStill dwelling on the last time ania told me off. I was trying to demonstrate that I would be affectionate and try to love anyone who is kind and receiving. Like I could treat anyone at least as well as I treat my own wife and regard her and an embodiment of God's creation. A container for God's soul and a witness to our experience of life together. I never expected this feeling to be so singular and narrowly focused on one person but that's what society expects of me at this point
11/12 7:30 amStill dwelling on this shitty memory of ania. Instead of being receptive of the extra attention, she told me she doesn't appreciate attention from one mediocre husband to another, and aside from that Eileen would have something to gain by not having an absent father.
11/12 8:30 amThis hurts in a lot of ways. It strips me of my role as a friend or good company. I never wanted to be compared to Vitale who I also love but can't express it towards. And I never thought of absent father as either a part of my identity or ania's. So why this came up at Eileen's birthday party just serves the cruelty that is the God that put me here. God is no teacher of love
11/12 9:00 amWhatever particles I see in my mind the point is that they are predictable, including world ending events
11/12 9:30 amThis broke me, the only reason I was absent around Eileen is because I was avoiding ania not to embarrass my stupid ass trying not to express something or say something stupid in front of her. Avoid Eileen was a side effect of avoiding being myself.
11/12 10:00 amSomething like, theory, I can't appreciate retro causality without appreciating rejection. But also rearranged. Rejecting appreciation without retro causality.
11/12 10:30 amTheory, if a pulse drive is sent into a black hole the drive and the pulse and the information payload all become one pulse. Something that could hit our sun like a bomb to reprogram it, that causes a solar flare to wipe the current programming. All metaphors for solar processes and data storage processes
11/12 11:00 amAbe left NAU because of merit pay. The money left but the policies stayed. Don't know what Trump is referring to by bring back merit pay when the policies never left but the pay disappeared
2037
9/27 2:00 pmEmotions
2043
11/25 2:00 pmEmotions
2044
1/6 0:00 pmEmotions
2023
9/2 9:30 am4 to 9 premarital partners are not recommended by this study because it affects stability and happiness. https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZPRW7gb7f/
9/17 1:00 pmI've been thinking about normalizing public nudity. To reverse the preposterous account in Genesis that Adam and Eve should feel guilty for their actions. Like the French or the Italians, so liberal it's wonderful. Instead, there is a societal defense mechanism. Instead of normalizing sexuality or nudity, anybody caught looking at Italian or French girls on the internet will never work in this country again. Haha, contradiction!
2024
2/14 10:00 amMarry a skinny girl with a huge appetite and fast metabolism, better for reproduction
9/18 4:30 amFor government and military. Read receipts that a command has gone through an automated system and reached humans on the other side. Distinction between google checking your email versus a human reading the email. I used to get a read receipt from my own @bjcullinan address when I would forward mail from my other Gmail account event though I never opened the email, Gmail would answer the SMTP message.
10/11 6:30 amIga
10/20 7:00 amIga
10/24 11:30 amIga
10/26 3:00 amIga
10/27 7:00 amIga
10/29 8:30 amIga
11/1 0:00 amIga
11/2 8:00 amIga
11/3 7:30 amIga
11/4 1:30 amIga
11/7 0:30 amIga
11/8 0:00 amIga
11/9 9:00 amIga
11/10 8:30 amHospital nurses that start with because of HIPAA, I cannot.. need to be fired immediately
11/11 5:30 amIga
11/13 0:00 amIga
11/13 1:00 amIga
11/13 7:30 amDream about backrooms. Stuck in some complex with lots of rooms and people. Same as usual, figuring out whose room is whose and which parts of the place need repairs.
11/13 8:30 amThe universe is like a bucket of water and spicy AI sand. And when we pay down in it, it forms around us on every dimension of understanding to create reality.
11/13 9:30 amStill can't help thinking my whole life is just remote viewing the distant past.
11/13 4:00 pmI'd rather be miserable than lonely I guess
11/13 5:45 pmDreaming of how I die because I can't imagine my way around it?
Brian Cullinan
12205 Rustler Rd
Flagstaff, Arizona 86004
bjcullinan@gmail.com
+1 (480) 466-0856
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Special Hiring Authority: Person with Disability
Federal Experience: None (on-going?)
Clearance: Level 0 (internet?)
OBJECTIVE: To obtain a full time position in public service with the FBI as a residential field
agent.
SKILLS SUMMARY: Fast context switching, easy to focus, quick learning individual. Over 24 years
of programming experience in Computer Science, computer programming, web technologies,
user-experience development, and data managements. Over 10 years of multi-cultural study,
philosophy, cognative bias, psychology, and theology. Multi-lingual with extensive
understanding of the English language, and a basic understanding of Polish (Mandarin and Arabic
pending). Deployed multiple business ventures complete with monetization on cloud platforms, as well
as self-hosted, on premise solutions. I am driven, highly trained, technologist and
contradictarian, with an emphasis on compassion and empathy towards others.
- In my role as a Software Engineer for a start-up medical company, EPIC Research and Diagnostics, I
exercised the full extent of my Computer Science expertise. During my tenure I was involved in
computer programming a medical kiosk, this simplified the workflow and necessary security components by
heavily restricting access to internal systems on the Windows based workstation accompanying the medical
scanning device. This was a homebrew user-experience that tailored low-level Windows API function calls,
as well as Group Policy to prevent tampering, misuse, and common web-browsing security flaws throught the
clinical trial.
- As a technologist Using MatLab native compilation, linear regression, and kirlian imaging, I spent
months studying and rewriting the entire software platform. I was able to reduce image processing time from 10
minutes to only 10 milliseconds per image. That is a 6,000% performance improvement over the previous version.
The improved platform was fast enough to run on video image capture from the device. In regard to data
management in no small part, the performance was improved by systematically redesigning the database model
to use "near" 3rd-Normal form.
- In additional to these major business goals, I developed, along-side another colleague, an on premise
internet-based solution for a personal "cloud" service that communicated locally with many connected client
across multiple physical hospital locations. Doctors would be able to communicate test results as they work from
different locations in town through the web based (web technologies) service (Microsoft MVC). This
inspired my propensity for medicine and full-body health and continued research in the field.
- With a development mindset towards body and health, I turned my focus, skill and study to the mind itself.
A former Marine
approached me with an idea to improve studying for college students. Over the course of 3 years, we designed and
developed 3 individual products and user expereiences with modern web technologies. We used Drupal
and Symphony to create an entire course based on study techniques students could implement to improve memory
retention.
- Throughout working on the platform, I also benefitted from the lessons. I learned how to remove distractions
from my environment and to vary my location while studying to expand associative memory. I also learned
interleaving study, which is studying different topics in seqence to improve memory retention.
- I helped monetize the platform by configuring and implementing the proper server transactional API
calls to Authorize.NET. This non-trivial process includes properly configuring server architecture to adhere to
PCI-DSS (Payment card industry, data security standards). Even though our server was designed NOT to store
customer information, we felt it was important to secure any association with student names and study data.
- I have adopted a mode of teaching to learn, which states that in order to fully understand a subject, a
person should be able to teach it. I intend to apply this to all facets of my career. I also learned a mode of
study popular in the medical field know as spaced repitition. This was the focus of our third
application, an iOS and web-based app that implemented flash cards at specifically timed intervals. The outcome
is that by studying flash cards that we not remembered more frequently, after a month of study the information
can be actively recalled (i.e. the testing effect) from memory.
- To further my studies, I spent a significate amount of time learning and recognizing over 200 cognative
biases. In order to understand my own mental development, I explored mythology from the 5 major world
religions. In order to understand the effect of religion on culture, I studies cultural norms such
as whether it is appropriate to be late for a meeting, or whether I should repair an old toy versus throw it
away and buy a new one. I extended this study into cooking and attempted to make dishes from major
cultures around the world.
- With a basic Sumarian level understanding of moral law, I turned my focus the abuses and self-abuses of modern
law. It became clear to that Americans are not willing to extract any measurable utility from my own mind and I would have to work alone. In my investigation I studied anti-social behavior laws as it relates to attempted mitigation
through shadow banning on social media platforms. It was my intention to philosophically prove the same
feature-set exposed by the darkweb, spreading manipulation and lies through the use of automation tools.
These abuses finally appeared as the Cambridge Analytica scandal, and I had proven to myself and my colleagues
how easy it was to betray people's trust, in my own small way. I asked multiple friends to "send compliments" to
the same person, automatically using the "Like"-button on thousands of posts, automatically inviting people to
charitable causes, and finally, scraping private message history from Facebook.
- Further investigation in to companies, I uncovered more rule breakers. Corruption from greed in public
sector was the megalomaniac version of small-business corruption. It appeared to me that nobody felt obligated
to
follow the established rules. These abuses were mostly in regard to data-privacy and data-integrity laws.
Software companies
that actively work against their customers / client to "double dip" in the free capitalist market. Selling personal data,
manufacturing false documentation, falsifying records, pay-walls, data "lockout", extortion, lying by
ommission, gross negligence, health code violations, identity theft, systemic racism in the
workplace /
State level, dismantling of homestead laws, were a few "close encounters" with Justice. Unfortunately
many
of these are still unmitigated. The struggle is real, indeed.
- As a residential host to nurses, foreign travelers, and local people, I learned acceptance,
tolerance, patience. I worked to overturn a living space in under 20 minutes, dining etiqette, and
learned about many different cultures from visitors. I learned landording laws, but more importantly, I learned
stewardship, as I tried to make my humble little plot profitable. I learned horticulture as it
applied to growing food in a garden and transforming sand in to soil through composting.
- I created a lush
garden in the desert that had no problem withstanding the hot Arizona summers. I studied municipal doctrine as
it related to
home ownership, and I documented minor failures of this society such as personal theft, noise ordinance, traffic
and commercial influence as the neighborhood grew around me.
- I also documented the technological advancements I
observed such as implementing street cameras at numerous intersections, implementing wireless technology for
monitoring sewage and gray water storage, traffic monitoring systems installed at night across the road,
and even the advancement of Gigabit fiber.
EMPLOYMENT HISTORY
Sitewat.ch
Front-end Developer
$10,000 over 1.5 years
As a Front-end developer at Sitewat.ch I implemented various interfaces for use with a web-security scanning tool
similar to pentest-tools.com required by Authorize.NET. I implemented web-safe standards according to Owasp.org,
and presented customers with a unified user experience for viewing possible vunerabilities in their
platform. My employer applied for many CVEs and credited all three team-mates on Google Security
Hall-of-Fame.
- Implemented a front-end interface for customers following Owasp guidelines such as safely escaping
"sinks",
anywhere in the application that a "user input" such as profile fields, or parts of the URL are inserted by into
the page for user feedback. This would prevent a user from sending a forged (XSRF) link meant to trick
the user
into clicking on something malicious (XSS).
- Participated in a DEFCON presentation of the effort, website vulnerability testing as a service using Nexus,
and the
individual contributions of my employer to the field. Revealing dozens of new exploits, and existing
vulnerabilities on major public service platforms.
- Used modern (at the time) design principals such as responsiveness such as resizing elements on the page for
different devices and high contrast. Implemented Accessibility features, such as using alt-tags to describe
content for screen readers, tab-indexes, i18t internationalization for over 50 languages. Authentication
features such as OAuth and HTTPS for secure login.
EPIC Research & Diagnostics
Software Engineer & Network Administrator
$200,000 over 2.5 years
As a software engineer for a start-up medical company, I was required to "wear multiple hats". This meant
including myself in business planning meetings, financial discussions, option vesting, military contract
proposals, FDA DNVO
submissions, data integrity, formal process improvement.
I started by creating a data entry database to migrate written records to digital form using Microsoft SQL server
for storage and querying. Data was entered by workers from a temp-hiring agency, so I provided basic level
technical support, any time there was confusion for a field, basic training, and user account creation through
>Active Directory (Microsoft LDAP).
I wrote a kiosk to use along side the medical device to minimize network risk and simplify workflow for hospital
technicians.
I implemented a Windows Business Server, complete with Exchange, networked file access, file-system revision
history, RAID mirroring, Exchange email, Active Directory, Group Policy coinciding
with a network policy that adheres to CFR 21 Part 11, general ITSM support, rackmounted servers for job
processing and on-premise "cloud"-like virtual machines with Hyper-V, Microsoft SQL Server
Finally, a colleague and I implement a "cloud"-like medical data record server in Microsoft MVC (a
successor to Master pages). This service assigned a geographic location to each medical device in the field, and
synchronized data between the client facing kiosk and the on-premise backend. The web-based system also presented
doctors with a portal to log in and review patient records remotely.
Patient records were displayed similar to the kiosk. At that time, I decided it would be a huge benefit to the
business to rewrite the client software using Window Presentation Foundation controls and remove some of
the 3rd party libraries. I was also able to reduce the processing time from 10 minutes to 10 seconds, and process
videographic snapshots of the patient scan. I wrote an automated validation process that tested the same
images with old and new versions of the client software. I used Selenium to validate the user experience of
the front-end web interface.
- Participated in business development and directional meetings such as applying for FDA approval using the DNVO
process with a precusor device called the Asira, which uses electrodes to communicate mitochondrial stresses on
the body.
- Implemented an unmaximised Small Business Server with Microsoft Exchange to minimize hosting costs and secure
intellectual property. Configured Active Directory and Group Policy to provide ubiquitous
file-system revision history across all connected systems.
- Wrote a kiosk explorer shell to minimize security risk and simplify workflow for device technicians in
the hospitals the company contracted with. Developed an automated and manual formal test process for validating
the new platform.
- Rewrote the main client application directly connected to the device, and assisted in writing web-based
medical record service for doctors to view patient information. Used Selenium for automated testing and
validation.
Study Sauce
Principal Engineer
$300,000 over 3 years
During my tenure, the owner and I designed and developer 3 unique platforms. The first platform was primarily a
marketing and sales front-end to test the target market for the minimally viable product. Students
would enter an individual, authenticated interface and enter their class schedule. When finished, we converted
their schedule to a comprehensive week plan complete with when they should study each topic. This was to
demonstrate and teach the student about time / work / study management, and encourage interleaving.
The second product expanded on the studying idea by making the class schedule the first step in an online learning
course. The course had 15 individual lessons, each lesson used gamification by providing a video tutorial,
asking a few simple quiz questions, and then giving the student a badge reward. This was meant to incentivize the
student to come back and complete future lessons. We also implemented A/B marketing using Google marketing
goals. This presented a specific percent of our traffic with two different landing pages based on the concept we
were testing.
The third product was an spaced-repitition system. "[We wanted to make somethig fun]". This was an app that
worked
natively on iOS and had a matching web-based user experience. The app kept track of progress and then
synchronized with the backend service for persistent database storage. The web-based administration offered
teachers a way to change content that was then synchronized to every student using the app client.
Spaced-repitition is a technique Jeopardy players and medical students alike use to memorize a lot of content
about a subject. It works by presenting the entire set of information on the first day of use, then only
presenting wrongly answered flash cards on the subsequent days of use.
That is, if a card is answered incorrectly,
it's presented the next day, if the answer is correct, the next day is skipped and it is reviewed 2 days later, if
it is answered correctly again, it isn't presented until day 5, day 10, day 20, day 30, and so on. By spacing out
when the
correct information is reviewed and increasing the freqeuncy for incorrect answer, this improve memory retention
and the ability to recall the correct answer quickly.
- Built a minimal viable product (MVP) using the Drupal platform. Created A/B marketing
pages to cater to our target market. Organized student schedules into a weekly plan in PDF format. Self-hosted
website running on a personal Linux (LAMP) server.
- Built a learning course using Symphony. Built 15 individual lessons using gamification reward system to
keep students interested. Built 6 different tools to get students to think long-term about goals and short term
organization in their weekly schedule. Integrated the weekly schedule with Google Calendar API.
- Built a spaced-repitition quiz app for memorization and active recall learning. Imported dozens
of lesson plans coiciding with elementary learning from BASIS schools. Imported a learning set for the US
Citizenship Test, requiring a basic understanding on American history.
- Simultaneously devepoled an iOS app and web-based user experience to make better use of Apple's iOS
store marketing pipeline. Connected in app content to Authorize.NET to monetize learning content. This
was intended to by a selling point for B2B (business-to-business) contracts.
Charles Schwab
Software Engineer
$60,000 over 4 months
In a short sprint at this company, I began to observe oddities of corporate behavior. In between being nagged by
my freshly assigned project manager over elusive "employee training", and other managers about "what firm
do your represent?", I investigated the company's corporate structure. Their internet "social network" was
anything but social, built on Microsoft Sharepoint.
Internally, attitudes we moot, people came to work, kept to themselves, formed alliances with people who spoke the
same language. The building was structured more like a money-data vault with very little sunlight. The basement
floor I was assigned to was full of anti-social contractors. Champagne Charlie could afford to keep me
around but I was let go for my "attitude".
While trying to rationalize why such a significant company would intentionally "Manage me out" (yes, this
is a real strategy), I had my first experience with Toast-masters. This seems like a great way for employees to
get to know one another, and learn about public speaking. Charle's Schwab apparently offered "learning
tracks" to their employees and would sponsor testing and certifications. In particular a track to becoming an ITSM
"security manager" with zero coding experience.
One of the more exciting events was a "Kaizen" workshop formed for employees. This was a good way to
introduce continuous integration style practices, in a formalized way, to people who haven't studied
Agile and require lots of structure. Tried not to take offense when another employee passive-agressively
expressed that I "needed to get up to speed". Out of this meeting, my team was inspired to brainstorm ways their
project applies to business needs. This was great because I had a lot of experience brainstorming outside
of the basement, but all ideas during the session were still confined to a very small box in the form of a
window-less conference room.
- Learned the corporate structure through a Microsoft Sharepoint based social networking application. Helped
managers identify "key stake-holders" for supporting our project's effort. Integrated with "big personalities"
by being friendly and trying not to pry into previous experiences.
- Realized one of the major reasons their simple project, "remove secondary access to databases through an
internet request tool" was so difficult to accomplish because they insisted on using Rational Unified Process.
Charles Schwab heavily relies on IBM and RUP is an IBM product.
- Tried to navigate "big personalities" from a tremendous project manager as I asked to help with timeline
goals. Tried to retrain my managers to approach RUP holistically, that is, all documentation should have been
developed simultaneously, rather than sequentially. The methodology in RUP doesn't make this clear, but drawing
from past miseries using the process at the medical company, I saw this as a major failure point.
- Failed to communicate the importance of brainstorming topics and diversifying your environment as a means to
creatively solving a problem. Introduced managers to a document control system (DCS). Configured a Microsoft
Sharepoint site to link to "artifacts" within the DCS.
- By the end of the experience I had realized I was being intentionally ignored as a part of an external growth
process. Thank you to Charles Schwab for being large enough to bank-roll my failures. I was also emotionally
detached when I realized an 80 year old mainframer came to work with an eye infection instead of taking care of
herself and retiring (since she worked for a retirement company), I viewed this as flagrantly hypocritical and
sad.
Swiftpage
Senior Software Engineer
$100,000 over 14 months
The same day of my release from my previous company, I was invited to interview at a small-business
marketing company. This was particularly interesting because my father's manufacturing company is a client. I saw
this as both a way to better understand marketing, and even improve upon a product his company relied on. With his
advice to "work for a small-business", I was excited to contribute.
During my tenure, realizing my propensity for quelling disorderly behavior, I was as minimally disorderly
as possible. I tested networking features by using reddit.com/NSFW from the bathroom. They did indeed implement a
censhorship system on their internet connection, the results were abstract to me, something I'd like to see
changed for remote-workers and personal-accountability.
Human Resources implemented a policy for "unlimited paid-time-off". This is a psychological trick to get people to
take less time off, feeling like it's always there when they need it. I worked an entire year, about 3,500 hours
learning NodeJS without taking a single day off, even during the Christmas holiday when most of the office was
empty. Ironically, when I first entered the company, a woman was begging for time off over conference calls. This
is a failing policy and people should be compensated fairly for their time.
The development process consisted of employees trying to avoid an antiquated megolith written with overly burdened
state-management design principals ("feature completness", see Microsoft Code-Complete). When a change was
integrated the system would need to be update after work hours on Wednesday nights. If the change caused a failure
in the test-automation suite that was both precious and lacking "integration tests" the entire change would
be rolled back and attempted again the next night. It was the absolute worse possible method of avoiding
continuous integration (in software, solutions were widely available from major distributors).
The company offered a "learning track" and modes for self-improvement and even made their Job description sound
like they would pay for, or contribute to my education. At one point LinkedIn Learning was advertised to employees
in the office, and they offered sponsorship. I spent the entire month programming on the work project, and using
my secondary monitor to absorb programing and management courses on LinkedIn. When the month trial period expired,
LinkedIn Learning billed my personal account instead of the business account I had joined through.
Eventually, the work became too much, when I witnessed other managers in the office yelling at my boss to change
the pricing model to perpetuate the multi-level marketing sales. I offered to take my boss to lunch after he told
me that "the company has high expectations of me" without formalizing or writing those expectations down. Employee
reviews were conducted through ADP, at the beginning of the year he asked me for "what goals I would like to
accomplish". These goals were never readdressed, and at the end of the year, the goals my boss wrote into ADP had
nothing to do with the goals I sent him at the beginning of the year. My boss criticized my in front of other
employees in addition to the criticism in our monthly one-on-one meetings. I had enough, I was being "Managed
out".
- Built a marketing front end that integrates with Zuora (the billing platform like Authorize.NET). Used Angular
JS to create a new login form, account settings, buy funnel, billing statement (PDF generated by Zuora),
and itemized purchase page.
- Integrated Zuora with Eloqua, an enterprise email marketing solution from Oracle (similar to SendGrid). Failed
to explain to my boss Amazon AWS doesn't support C# unless it is built on .NET Core and would require a rewrite
of the entire platform. Lost a month of effort and switched to NodeJS which was much more widely support on AWS.
Used API calles of both Zuora and Eloqua to create a micro-service, or serverless function (not
sure of the correct name, lots of terminology was being thrown around at the time)
- Formed alliances with the marketing team that was competing for the same ownership over the product sales
feature of the customer facing website. Validated and automated a manual process costing the company no less
that $10,000 per year. It felt awkward to change teams within the same company, so I didn't apply for
alternative roles they advertised even thought they matched my skill-set.
- Realized I was being Managed out when my boss told me the effort working with multiple marketing
managers to automate and validated a manual billing process was "a waste". I saw the effort as a simple
equation, if a company spends $10,000 per year on a manual process, and pays me to automate the process, it is
somewhere between 1 - 2 years of operating automatically before they save and repurpose the money that would
have been spent on manual labor. The employees involved we all ecstatic to never have to do this again, but my
boss couldn't be concinved.
- For the first time in my life, I felt I needed to take control of my life, instead of just taking things as
they come. I quit. It was obvious people didn't want to communicate with me decently.
Sabbatical
Indentured Servitude
$60,000 over 2 years
Realizing my mind wasn't fit for corporate or the small-business world, I turned my study to something more
philosphical. I tried to get to know people through hosting. I applied for a job in San Franscisco with digit.co.
I realized quickly the financial sector would not be kind to me.
I left the US for 3 months to live in Poland. I cashed out all my credit cards. I learned what it meant to live
with a packed suitcase. I studied philosophy, The Bible, Hinduism, Buddhism, Judaism, and spiritual religions. I
navigated a foriegn country with my wife, I was amazed by how things had progressed having not been to Europe for
10 years. Internet was widely available, dozens of American services like Uber and Airbnb were widely
available. I was amazed that censorship of American TV programs was still common practice. Despite being an
America and paying for HBO, I wasn't allowed to watch the same HBO programs in Europe.
I became a father in Poland after American doctors told my wife that she would have a natural birth if they
decided that was the safest method of delivery. I saw a pattern of abuse of authority when doctors now
promote cesarean surgeries. They can collect more money from insurance companies, not because the recovery or
delivery is safer. Doctors told my wife that "In America the doctor decides what is best for you, and if you don't
like it you can go back to Poland." after she requested an episiotomy. Doctors in America don't practice medicine
once they leave college and get to a specific level of authority.
I Poland we enjoyed many beautiful gardens. My wife enjoyed speaking her native language and I enjoyed learning
it. She taught me about history, and I realized I could stand on a side-walk that was older than all of United
States history. I was catered to at hospitals. I walked in one day with a kidney pain and was able to talk to a
doctor immediately, they prescribed a rosemary oil based medicine and I didn't owe thousands or even hundreds of
dollars for the visit.
The doctors treated my wife with respect. They didn't question where she came from, they did ask why she came to
Poland and we explained how doctors have no problem betraying people's trust in American medicine. The hospital
refunded the money we spent on consultations we had before paying for a birthing package. This was absolutely
astounding compared to Phoenix, Arizona doctors that wanted nearly $20,000 up-front with no refunds should
something happen, that price does not include the hospital bill. We were able to pay for child delivery out of
pocket.
Airline companies act differently in Europe, almost like they want people to travel easily. The only difficulty
was in Sweden when they required we come to the airport 4 hours ahead of time with a printed copy of our baording
pass, the charged a $40 fine for printing out my ticket and being late after my wife argued with them not to
cancel our flight. This was a flagrant abuse of power and the women behind us was not so lucky, they cancelled her
flight. We flew Nordic Airlines before it was renamed to Norse Atlantic because of American politics not being
able to compete with a government that subsidized flights thanks to being a large oil-refining country.
We encountered systemic "dragging of feet" visiting government offices and nagivating paperwork. We completed a
Consulary Report of Birth Abroad, and gained United States and Polish citizenship (dual-citizenship)
for our first born son within
the month following his birth. I realized in the hospital that I'm living in a time period where circumcision
could be considered a "form of abuse", this weighed on me heavily, but ultimately after researching the genitals
couldn't be cleaned until 3 years of age, we decided to circumcise. This was an "uncommon request" hospital staff
explained, but they were able to source a female Jewish surgeon from New York. I'm amazed at how perfectly well
our trip went despite politics making it appear as though The Old World is behind America technologically.
American doctors, unfamiliar with Noam Chomsky's opinions on American Exceptionalism, explained to us that America
is the best place in the world for medicine. I've laid this false information to rest, it is banter and nothing
more, people are mostly the same everywhere, some ambitious and educated, some lazy and avoiding work, and some
happy to do food deliveries with American software platforms.
- Discovered Poland an amazing American and Schengen ally. Practiced the Polish language I learned
through Duolingo. Consulted with doctors on child birth. Confronted government paperwork with agility and
punctuality. Avoided having my marraige certificate stolen from me with a side note of casual rascism directed
at my wife, stemming from Jewish inheritance. Lived happily, and nearly applied for a job setting up
rseidential
A/V home automation equipment in Wilonow, a suburb of Warschawa.
- Learned about child birth, episiotomy, and catering to a new-born and a wounded wife. Thanks to the surgical
precision of the episiotomy my wife was able to heal and nearly stop bleeding after only 3 days of discomfort.
She had her "disolvable" stitches removed after 3 days because they poked her and the bleeding already stopped.
I cooked for her every day in a small apartment loft booked through Airbnb.
- Navigated government offices and paperwork to complete applications for a United States and Polish
citizenship. Gained dual-citizenship for our son, and felt a great reward from having the Consular Report
of
Birth Abroad. Felt like a diplomat visting multiple government offices. In Poland, asking a government worker to
do work felt more like asking for a favor, where in America paying a fee feels more like an expectation that
work will get done.
- Visited gardens and absorbed Polish history through visiting old shops, and castles downtown. Relearned how to
enjoy people. Learned about cooking and philosophy. Learned about religion and politics as "Seperation of Church
and State" is an American ideal. In Poland, government offices are heavily influence by Cathoicism, and that
affects policies like abortion being illegal (2022 in Arizona this seems relevant). In American politics,
seperation of church and state is an "ideal", ideal means ideally, politics are fair for all beliefs, but that
isn't always how law turns out in practice.
- Realizing this distinction, I turned my foundational knowledge of religion towards to law. I tried to search
for philosophical dichotomies where the law doesn't match "ideal" situations, where the law has a short-coming
of morality. Personally, I wanted to understand my own experience with the law as it related to being lied to
over a Solar leasing program from Tesla (then SolarCity owned by Elon Musk's brother in law).
idTech 3 Game Engine
Game Engine Developer
$60,000 over 2 years
When I first approached this game-engine, I intended to improve the loading experience of QuakeJS. QuakeJS is a
Web Assembly / emscripten port of Quake 3 to the web-browser. The loading process took about 10 minutes over
cellular network, and desktop was not much better. It first loads the Trial Demo content, about 300 MBs of data.
Then it loads additional game data to run custom levels ("maps" as they are called in game).
My approach was to minimize the number of line changes stylistically. That is, rather than moving and renaming
functions, I would use a pre-compiler macro to create the necessary logical breaks in the function, then call the
new broken up function in the same sequence that QuakeJS did. Since I already had a working implementation, it was
easy for me to see if my change caused a breaking error, or if it was indeed calling the function just like the
original port, only with less code changes.
Once completed with the code changes, I iterated on development trying to find the most burdensome pieces of code.
i.e. The parts that added the most complexity through new variables, lots of line changes, bug reports,etc. One of
the biggest hurdles was this idea of a file manifest.json. This was hard to create, and people ran into errors
trying to generate additional content through the repack.js script. The author's intention was to repackage game
assets to be smaller and compatible with web. I reapproached this issue 3 times during my development.
Once I had a solid foundation and a working Web Assembly build, I attempted to distill out of emscripten only the
system-level APIs that it required to run this particular engine. I expected to double the performance, and that's
exactly what came from the effort. By removing the complexity implemented by emscripten's burdensome file-system
APIs, extra work being done by the GL emulator, and memory leaking from Audio spatialization with SDL2, I was able
to double the performance. Maps that used to only run well at 30 frames per second (FPS) could now run at 60FPS
and in-general I could run the engine at over 200 FPS inside the browser window.
I then turned my focus to game developement, I wanted to implement a Portal system similar to prioprietary
closed-source forks. I was able to adapt some of the code left-over from the original game that was left unused in
the source code. I copied some of the models from another Portal implementation and implemented the missing
functionality to display droppable portal or wall mounted portals like the game Portal from Valve. This was an
interesting project because it required a fairly in depth understanding of renderer code and limitations enforced
from legacy systems.
I realized this work was much too fun for one person and I reached out to other community leaders like to owner of
lvlworld.com with an idea to present all the lvlworld maps in 3D as a fun exploration tool for visitors. He loved
the idea and eventually rewrote my entire effort to his own accord. I felt terrible about not being able to
support the website anymore, but ultimately it felt like a win having another proprietary, closed source
implementation as a good learning experience for the owner, Tig.
- Taught myself the C, C++, Web Assembly, and emscripten eco-system based on examplary work from inolen and
QuakeJS. Learned to communicate with other community leaders. Learned there is a heavy bias towards not
violating GPL licenses with other GPL licenses. This is a huge roadblock for software, but I understand no one
would agree with me. They just don't see discovery and learning as being more important than respecting
propriety. The propietors of many engine forks don't feel the need to share their work with anyone.
- Learned to use Discord. Assisted in other people's discovery path by answering technical questions about the
engine. Provided line-by-line demonstrations of how I might have solved a similar problem they are facing. Tried
to built community membership by encouraging developers to explore a variety of communities as they search for
answers to their design questions. For example, if one community already tackled display unicode, it's possible
the licensing would allow them to reuse code for their own open-source implementation.
- Contributed to open-source projects and was a member of GitHub Arctic Vault. Eventually stopped working on the
project entirely due to legal threats. I asked community members about licensing and they were disinterested at
best. The understanding of legality was more important than the developmental outcome of my effort.
- Learned a lot about vector graphics, linear algebra, graphics hardware, 3D algorithms. Learned about my own
mind and my ability to absorb knowledge and experience from working with other people. Learned to enjoy software
development again, it felt like I was doing it for myself instead of being told to do it for someone else like
in the corporate or small-business environment. Learned the process of learning is sometimes more important than
the outcome
- Learned to use Twitch and Youtube live streaming. Learned to use Web Assembly in a vast array of projects,
porting software to the web browser is very fascinating to me, even though it feels like propriatary
close-source companies are trying to destroy the free and open web. Learned to filter out which parts of my
experience are relevant, extreme, or unnecessary.
ACCOMPLISHMENTS
- Learned about whole body health, and how mitochondrial stressors are represented by low-level light detection
eminated from the body (Kirlian imaging). A previously thought psuedo-science has scientific backing when
Eukyotes "powerhouse" the mitochondria is treated like a radio signal.
- Learned to expand my learning through better study methods. Iterating through study techniques every day to
exercise my eididic memory. Continued my studies using the interleaving method so my mind never gets fixated on
a single box for too long. Increasing blood-flow and brain activity by learning construction, physical exercise,
and new techniques in software development.
- Improved my spiritual health by trying to reconcile religious beliefs with scientific possibilities through
extensive study of multiple world religion. Began to understand the patterns how many beliefs are built on top
of other beliefs. Development a constradictarian mindset by question the belief systmes of colleagues that only
focus on their own "1 true religion". Quelled my own personal philosphies in favor of philosphy learned versus
philosphy implemented in my behavior.
- Learning game engine specifics like physics interactions with many entities, 3D geometric spaces, linear
algebra, familiarity with floating point hardware (GPUs), graphics processing pipelines, Web Assembly, and the
C, C++, Makefile eco-system.
- Read and familiarized myself with dozens of statutes including Arizona Landlord/Lesser laws, CPPA (California
Privacy Act), GDPR (European General Data Protection Regulation), CFR 21 Part 11, PCI-DSS (Payment Card Industry
- Data Security Standards), Title 47 (Federal Communication Regulation pending), Arizona Traffic Laws (in it's
entirety), Arizona Property Statutes (Title 33), HIPAA, tax regulations, dozens of apriori relevant to main
stream outcomes, dozens of encyclopedia entries related to law and regulation.
- Overcoming childhood trauma and prayer as a methodology for improving memory retention (in progress). Taking
notes on oscillating thought every second. It appears that thinking about possibility or planning the future is
the opposite of living in the moment. Possible expansion of intuition by oscillating between possibility and
then focusing on the moment, blurring vision of current scenery, then focusing on nothing, even the word
"nothing" in my mind to detach. Hard to oscillate at 60 BPM, might be the key to controlling theta waves.
Putting slight pressure with my hand on the back of my head helps to clear thoughts, might help with motion
sickness. Indictation not to pop my knuckles or crack my joints, conflict with chiropracty (in progress)?
COMPUTER SOFTWARE
- NodeJS - 10,000+ hours - Expert
- Linux, Windows, MacOS - 10,000+ hours - Expert
- C, C++, Makefile - 10,000+ hours - Expert
- PHP - 10,000+ hours - Expert
- English - 10,000+ hours - Expert
- Web-based UX design - 10,000+ hours - Expert
- Web-based Validation - 10,000+ hours - Expert
- Time Management - 10,000+ hours - Expert (just ask to see my calendar)
- Studying Demons - 10,000+ hours - Expert
ADDITIONAL TRAINING
- 120 hours of LinkedIn Learning Management Courses
- 10,000+ hours studying Philosophy, Psychology, and Theology (I'm like an encyclopedia of barely useful
information)
- The full ET experience thanks to Nikola Tesla.
EDUCATION
BA - Bachelor's of Science in Computer Science, Northern Arizona University, Flagstaff, Arizona, 2010 (GPA 2.5)
HONORS AND AWARDS
None
VOLUNTEER WORK & COMMUNITY INVOLVEMENT
ACM - Association for Computing Machinery
IEEE - Institute of Electronics Engineers